What to do about Energy

[OxyDout]

I have been swaying on the fence with trying to stay sober. I have finally been clean for a couple of weeks. My question is, what do I do for energy? or what can I do to make things better. I find myself Nodding off at work, and that can't happen. I am miserable today, i don't know what to do. Someone please help, I'm on my fourth cup of coffee.............

[lanas]

Wren--You are incredbily thoughtful--thanks.  Yes the energy level is greatly improving.  I am discovering that when I feel like I can't cross the room, if i get up and really DO something I actually feel better.  I went to this silly fashion show with a bunch of women last night and had a blast--I felt like my old self!  It was GREAT.  So while it took me a very long time, I think I am finally getting closer to normal.  TO all who are working through this... there is hope.  To all who have been there--you were right!!!  THanks for all the words of encouragement.... I could not have gotten as far as I have without the support here.  But I have to say, I still find myself looking in medicine cabinets when I am at someone's house.  Luckily I've come up empty... why am I doing this?  I even had some drugs around until about 5 days ago that I never took.  FInally flushed them.  Weird.
GWH--hang in there.  You've had surgery; take what you need to get through the pain then get back on track.  You MUST take care of yourself first.  Are you at home?  Can you get up and get around at all or is it too painful?  If there is anyway to just get out in the sunshine, try to at least do that.
Hi Frenchee--yes, I'm doing pretty well.  I hope you are finding more peace.  I struggle with the lack of energy but haven't craved the pills much at all (only the energy the pills gave me!).  I know I could get a  script in a heartbeat, but have not allowed myself to do so.  I keep thinking that if I get a script now, look at all this time I will have wasted.  And you've been a lot longer than me!   Are you on anything for depression?

[Deason]

I am so happy to hear your energy level is improving!  I wish I could say the same for myself.  Unfortunately, I took one vicoden over the weekend (1/2 Fri night and 1/2 sat night).  I went away for the weekend and brought them with me "just in case".  I was so disappointed in myself.  I haven't taken any since Saturday night and I threw out the remainder of my script.  I am having a hard time getting used to being so tired at night.  Nighttime used to be my most productive time of the day - cooking, cleaning, calling friends/relatives, reading to my son.  My husband travels a lot and often calls me late in the evening. I used to be wide awake when he would call and I would always be so positive but now, if I am even awake to answer the call, I have nothing good to say.  I really do miss all that energy.   I guess I just have to get used to my new "normal".  At least I no longer have to worry/stress about my monthly bogus visits to my doctor.  I always felt so terrible about that.  

I started this message to tell you how happy I am that things are looking up for you but I got a little carried away about my self.  Did you suffer from any mental cravings?  If so, how long should I expect them to last?  For me thats the hardest part.  I never suffer from any flu like symptoms (just fatigue).

Take care.

[Frenchee]

Good going! Mental craving? that's the story of my life... I have been clean since Feb 4th but still crave. Granted, it gets easier but once in a while, I still go crazy trying to figure out how I could get some vics. I got caught doctor hopping so that was the end of it for me... As you might know, doctor hopping is a felony. I was seeing 2 doctors and neither one of them want to see me anymore... I wish they would have "helped" me getting over the w/d but i did it on my own.  Anyway, it should get better every day. Just hang in there. You are doing great! I can not beleive that you actually threw away your script. I could have never done that! trust me... I had to go cold turkey because assuming I would have had the option to tamper down, I could have never control my doses. If I have it, I take it....Good for you!  : )

[skipper]

hey people:
how is everyone? not you you gwh...i know how you feel and i'm not
much behind you. i feel like i should go beat the **** out of the
podiatrist who sliced my toe open...but i won't 'cause i'm in too
much pain and just generally feel too lousy!

i don't know why i ever let that podiatrist touch me. anyhow i quit
taking my oxy-c and have just beeen taking the percoset 7.5 i was
given for break-thru pain. i guess if i'm going to hurt i might as
as well get going on detox....

gwh: i know how you feel. besides the pain, that horid feeling of
your body being violated by some surgeon's knife...i can speak for
no on else, but i've had my body cut on too many times...and god
i'm so tired... all i've done today is sleep...and i don't know why
i'm so depressed..

think i'll just take another nap.
keep an angel on your shoulder!!
kip

[lanas]

No no no!  Talk about yourself!  I am doing much better, so hopefully I can help you.  Believe me that lack of energy and ability to do do do and go go go and be supermom and super housewife has been THE MOST AWFUL PART about all of this.  But I really am beginning to feel better.  But I am learning a very important lesson that everyone here tried to tell me--even when you think you have no energy to do anything, get up and do SOMETHING, b/c you really do feel better.  YOU REALLY DO.  Before I went to this fashion show last night I was wiped out; all I could think about was ways to get out of going (it was a fund raiser and I was going with my sister).  But I didn't; I went.  I ended up having a great time and felt absolutely NORMAL.  It was amazing!!!!  I've been more tired today, but I have made myself move around and do tings and it HAS made a difference.  So even though you think you feel terrible, still try to do -- let me know how you are; I am thinking about you.

[skipper]

hey it's me .... back again for another try.... getting this posting and how i feel right! everything looks real hopeless... but i refuse to let my superficial, self centered feelings dictate to me or anyone else who reads my posts how to feel. pain is a very strong and self centered emotional process...

i originally came here for hope and strength, and i refuse to be a part of anything that drags this forum and it's memebers down! the way i feel is not wrong...it's just not right for me to wallow in the depths of the despair that i seem to have allowed to take hold of me!

there is hope somewhere at the end of all this. my pain and depresion is simply that, no more, no less...and there is a way through it! sometimes i need someone else to tell me that, to kick my ass when i allow myself to slip into the dedpths of moras and dramatic despair...someone to tell me there is a way through this too...

too all my forum friends...i love and care about you and there just isn't one damm thing you can do about it!!!if this makes you feel good...excelent...if it makes you feel uncomfortable...tough
****...get used to it!

keep an angel on your shoulder
kip