Why do I do it?

[sadinmichigan]

Why is the first thing that comes to mind when things suck..to drink..smoke..or whatever..sick of it..

[cathy5841]

sad, i think it is essential to your recovery to understand why.  how can you ever deal with it if you dont know what it is.. you are doing good.  you are right you really need to get some sleep or you are going to get sick... we love you sweetie.  hang in there
cathy

[worried878]

keep doing what u gotta do  ....wishing u all the luck in the whole wide world!

[sadinmichigan]

thanks..I think i'm really too upset to have a rational conversation...I know everyone means well..maybe i need to ask why? and then...get over it..I haven't slept in weeks and ...well ..you know..I am feeling a bit attacked right now..I thought this forum was to express what i was thinking at the moment and it doesn't mean i'm going to do anything..just talking out my feelings..GTMI...i will pm you...xoxo and worried  thankyou i will pm you too. i gotta check out of this thread i think...no hard feelings to anyone..

[bmc1976]

Maybe you could "train your brain" to go on a walk when things are bothering you. It really does help to relax yourself. They would be a great habit to have. I know when I'm upset a long walk works wonders. I throw on some headphones, get my dog, and head out. It's like I'm in my own little world. Afterwards I feel so much better.

[worried878]

When I "woke up" after WDs that was one of the first things on my mind  Why?  What are the issues that caused me to do this in the first place?  I knew quick as when those thoughts came in to my mind, I wanted a pill...i figured out what my issues where thru episodes of craving...at work when I was stressed, thoughts of certain past events....issues i need to work on and i am...it is a good thing i think to start analyzing.."WHY"

[K Todd]

Are you still trying to figure things out?

Or did you go and pray?

Love,
Todd