Withdrawal worse everytime

[dreamin]

I am wondering why physiologically withdrawal symptoms get worse everytime you go through them, I have severe cluster headaches and don't take norco all the time,  but when I need to take them when I am in a bad cycle, (a cycle can last anywhere from 3-5 days) I go through withdrawals, the bone pain, achiness, all of it.  I t didn't use to be this way, but now it happens everytime.  I would rather suffer the withdrawals then take them when I don't need to, but it is getting harder..can someone explain this to me?

[vicoaddict]

Its amazing how everything you just said seems to sum up my life addiction.  When the words come out of my mouth that I am gpoing to quit it never reaches my brain.  In the back of my mind I know if and when I have vicodine I will use.  So I try to make it accessable to me yet its still everywhere.  This week I reached an all time low I called in my own presription under my dentists name and I am scared to death I am going to end up in jail.  And all I keep thinking to myself is this isn't my life.  No one can even tell I'm still using and when I go through withdrawals I tell my husband I have the flu, because if he knew the truth I'm scared he would leave me.  So I take more pills to get rid of all these fears but all I really feel is out of control.  Does it eber end?

[AmberHunter]

you just crossed a big line calling in your own script... that is scary, you can go to jail, it is serious...

i know too many people who have done time doing that girl... i am keeping my fingers crossed for you that you get away with it this one time but believe me, you won't get away with it forever...

you need to do something... i don't mean to be harsh, but i think the time is NOW for you to get serious about doing something about your pill problem...

you can email me at ***@**** if you want... i will do whatever i can to help you out, i feel that strongly about it... what you just did in calling in a script is not a good thing, i promise you... you are headed for bigger trouble than you can possibly imagine...

i hope to hear from you...

amber

[mystere]

Yes fortunately or unfortunately it will end and only YOU can determine how that end will come--I know the deperation you both feel-The shame-the utter hopelessness of it all!  Wanting to quit--fearing the withdrawal-willing to do almost anything to get your hands on some pills!  My life fell apart over 2 weeks ago because of those #@#@ing pills--My cries for help were posted all over this board!--The good news is that YOU CAN DO IT!
I was willing to endure 5-7 days of being extremely uncomfortable to have my life back--I promise that if you make the decision to quit you will be amazed at how quickly things improve in your life--If not there is a freight train headed straight for your door--especially if you are calling in scripts!
You DO NOT WANT to experience withdrawal from a jail cell! You both are in my prayers--please read the threads and post--it is wonderful therapy--Good luck we're pulling for you!Peace/Prayers-Mystere AKA N.O. Lady

Anne

[vicoaddict]

Its amazing how everything you just said seems to sum up my life addiction.  When the words come out of my mouth that I am gpoing to quit it never reaches my brain.  In the back of my mind I know if and when I have vicodine I will use.  So I try to make it accessable to me yet its still everywhere.  This week I reached an all time low I called in my own presription under my dentists name and I am scared to death I am going to end up in jail.  And all I keep thinking to myself is this isn't my life.  No one can even tell I'm still using and when I go through withdrawals I tell my husband I have the flu, because if he knew the truth I'm scared he would leave me.  So I take more pills to get rid of all these fears but all I really feel is out of control.  Does it eber end?

[vicoaddict]

I know what you mean about not wanting to go through the withdrawal. It makes you feel like you just want to die but it does get easier. If I have vicodine its like I have to take it.  I can't stop the urge.  I take 5-6 at a time a chew them for a stronger affect and about two hours later I am taking them again.  I was clean for three months and I just relapsed a couple of days ago because the dentist gave me a prescription and I couldn't say no.  Once about three months ago I stole someone else precription at longs drugstore for 240 vicodine.  The bottle only lasted me 5 days.  That's when I know I needed to do something or this addiction was going to kill me. I met a woman once who's daughter was taking 20 vicodine a day.  Her daughter had a 2 year old and a new baby and one day her heart just stopped because of the vicodine.  It scares the hell out of me yet I still take it.  I have so much energy when I do, but I don't want to die.

[gamzz]

hi just read some of your posts and i know where you are coming from,  i cant seem to stop no matter what i say or do, i just got my refill for my duragesic patch but i cant get it til the 1st of the month, i went to the drug store yeserday and they said it was to soon to get them and i had to wait three days  i was so upset cause all iwanted was to get them so i would not have to feel the pain any more.  i hate to say it but i will go and get my script on thursday even though i know that it is wrong and that i want to stop but i just cant go through the hell of withdrawl.  i dont want to do this **** anymore  i dont know what to do. i just want to feel normal  and the sad part is that i dont know what that feels like anymore . as many of you   the first thing i do in the morning before i even brush my teeth is get up to take whatever i may have at the time i feel like i need to take 2or3 vics to get in the shower.. and another thing is when i am out of my pills  people can tell the difference whether i look diff or act diff its ****** up...  just wish i never started to take anything.. my only hope right now is to get to see the dr. that prescribes the ( bup)  and i pray to god that, that is my only way out of this hell.  if anyone knows anything about that drug (bup) please let me know if it really works !  i sure hope so cause that is my only hope at this point. thanks for listening again  im really gald that i found this site it does help  me  thanks again bye for now   gamzz