a daily medatation book

[hippy]

a daily medatation book is agreat tool in the begining of recovery as well always.
i have mentioned it before, na has a daily reading book, it is callede just for today, today medatation is on making ammends
by the way ammends is somthing  that can waiy  don't rush into
making amends, most new people think they need to do a fourth step and an 8 step make amends, .
step one is always the place to start, acceptance of the truth
i am an addict , i have used aginst my will, ,i have hurt people i love
aginst my will , meaning that is not what i wanted to do.

anyway back to  a daily medatation book my fav is ( each day is a new beginning ) it always seemed that that little book was right on time, inspireing me just when i need it., when ever i thought i was done with staying clean ,i would read  a medatation that would help me get back on track, it was like a miricle.
hazelden sells them as well as barnes and noble. they are in the misnamed self help area of the book stores.

if it is not practical it is not spirtual.!

humilty means being who we are and not who we think we are.!

it is not what we used that makes us an addict but why we used.!

unconditional love is allowing others to make mistakes
and still accept them and provide encouragement. !

a mature conscience is aware of it's motives

peace!!!!!!!!! and good day

[peaz]

I called my boss--you start Monday!!!  Wear something w/ deep pockets......:-)

[peaz]

But I had taken thousands of other pills.  I NEVER thought I'd get away w/ it for as long as I did--over two years, I guess.  I was VERY careful not to take CII'S, which were inventoried every month (physically counted) because the discrepancy would have been noticed immediately.  As it was, we did total store inventories every two years, but the thing is--the computerized results were just filed somewhere and no one ever compared the am't dispensed w/ the am't ordered.  I remember one day I walked in, and my boss said." We have to count EVERY SINGLE controlled substance today."  I NEARLY **** AND THREW UP right there!!  I thought my time had come.  But I waited through the following days and weeks and NOTHING happened. Anyway, back to my getting busted; though I hadn't taken the percs, I eventually confessed to my addiction, and I was given the Treatment/Jail Option and I chose the latter.  I had really tried, over those two years, to hold my dosages to a minimum, and I did a pretty good job.  I was up tp 10 or so a day of various strengths (whatever was closest that day) Not horrible, but still a struggle. Sorry this was so long. Peaz

[peaz]

Good morning! I finally got  the computer back, so I'll briefly run through my "drama.  I started working in the pharmacy probably in 1995 or so.  At first I was just a tech, learning the ropes, and gradually, through self-study and field experience, got my national certification. (I'm really an English teacher, but ran away to Alaska to work on the Pipeline instead of teach, but that's a whole 'nother story..) I really LOVED my job---it was challenging, fun (at times) and my boss and I really got along well.  I was working full time, w/ lots of overtime and started getting REALLY stressed out.  Also. I had a problem w/ some bone spurs in my foot, which I guess was the impetus to the drug abuse.  I copped a couple hydro one day, found out it not only took care of my foot pain, but I felt great!  And after a few months and bigger dose I felt even greater!!!   I'd never been on an antidepressant before, but I didn't need to after discovering the vikes...To make a long story short (most of which  is fairly similar w/ all of us addicts) there came a day when I was working w/ the owner/RPH and he accused me of taking a couple of percs from a script I'd just filled that morning.  Oddly enough--I HADN'T taken them--

[peaz]

Number 1 rule of etiquette:  Always say "peaz" and "thank-you."

[peaz]

"Peaz Don't Eat the Daises"----1960's movie starring Doris Day

[athena]

You guys are sooooooo funny.How about "peaz porage hot,peaz porage cold" from an ancient nursery rhyme...I think.lol

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