addicted to oxycontins, cant get off em

[drew420]

well ive been doing oxycontins for a good year and a half now and im not prescribed anything ive been doing them since i was 17 and i am now 19, im starting to realize i have a serious problem i havent been paying credit card bills cant save a damn penny  basically i owe over 800-1000 dollars to banks/credit companies, the thing is i make about 275-290 a week after taxes and i have no rent to pay etc.  anyways bottom line oxy 80s run me 60 dollars in glen burnie maryland (suburbs of baltimore) and around here if you have a OC dealer your lucky because oxys are HARD to come by around here. my habit consists of 40mgs-80mgs a day, lately i start illin as soon as i wake up (wake up freezing cold), etc today i swore id try to stop but instead i ended up buying 3x 15 mg roxis and eating 1 and snorting 2, anyways bottom line is i wanna get off of these things and was wondering how hard it is to sign up to a meth or suboxin clinic and how expensive each one is, im sick of paying 30-60$ a day and being drained of money i get paid every 2 weeks and usually by day 7 or day 8 i have no money and therefore the rest of my days are HELL but i somehow always manage to get what i need....im just sick of putting myself in debt and blowing my money, im in college but i have skipped 7+days this semester to get high , im sure there are plenty of ppl that have been in my situation and who still are in my situation, i just need advice on what i need to do suboxin or methadone, i personally think methadone would work for me because i can wean off of oxys, its hell of a lot cheaper and im sorry to say, i can get high and then work my way down until i am off this ****, just please help me i need advice and i am not telling my parents or anyone in my family about my problem, the only positive feedback will be on here

thanks in advance,
drew

[virgo1969]

Way to go! That is so great to hear that you are doing well. It is a wonderful feeling to know that you are on your way to a new start. Focus on the positive and move forward.
Keep posting. The support is a great help as you well know.

Best of luck!

[lovemypillhead]

Is your girlfriend still with you?  Was she an addict?  I was reading how her savings is spent...and i was just curious.

[lovemypillhead]

U made the comment:

The comment I was going to make before I read all the others was, if you can spend that kind of money of your DOC, then you can make yourself important enough to spend it on the meth or sub if needed


I can't speak for the Drew cat above..but, your argument is technically true but impossible at most times.

When an addict is in their withdrawl state and they have some money on them.....they want their DOC NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!  It is like they can't be in the mind set to do what makes sense...and that would be to put that money aside,  in a bank, add to it weekly, then have enough to get sub or meth. All they are thinking about is not feeling like sh!t anymore....that is why i truly believe that unless the addict has good health insurance for suboxone or qualifies for free methadone treatment in their area, getting on suboxone is next to impossible.

I have never seen an addict have the willpower to stash that extra money away in the "suboxone fund" all the while their dealer is blowing their phone up and they are in withdrawl.  

I get your point and it makes complete sense to someone like me.  But, it isnt real when it comes to an addict.

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

You are going to make it young dude!!!  And I am really so happy for you - - just dont ever forget what you just went through......it never gets any easier....there is a huge and neat world waiting for you - - go for it!!

[drew420]

only argument i have with that is morgan....i have a real hard time spending that much money on ocs and have just realized its not worth it but to tell you the truth i would rather buy a 80 everyday, then get on the suboxone program, as it is the same price....lol

[morganave]

The comment I was going to make before I read all the others was, if you can spend that kind of money of your DOC, then you can make yourself important enough to spend it on the meth or sub if needed.  So glad to hear you are doing well, I wish you luck.
Think of all the people like myself who have no day under their belts, and you are moving right along.  Before you forget, write your self a letter telling all about the hell you just went through, and if you feel the need, read it over and over again as needed.