could use some help going off injectable morphine

[vettezr1]

Hi, found this site while looking for help, I lead a pretty good life, good job, I played hard and broke many bones and surgeries,
anyway I was in a pain managment and was eventualy put on 3 injections daily of morphine sometimes 4, well I am going off it, doctor was arrested it was making me sick anyway, well now I want to die, the withdrawel is bad enough I can take that
but the pain in my back and legs is unbarable. any ideas?
I have to chew up 3 Vicodens when the pain in legs get so bad, I want off all of it any thoughts.
thanks. I used to be a wieght lifter can I start working out to help?

[lisabet]

Hi peaz - Alexis - It's consoling to know I'm not the only one that can do such nutty things....smile...hopefully, it'll get better for all of us.

And peaz - stop that pouting; you're gonna step on your lower lip!  :)  You always put a big smile of my face - both of you have a good day. Gotta get dressed and go out to (yep)grocery shop....(and yes, I'll probably pout all the way)...smile

Love, Lisabet

[peaz]

I'm  chuckling as I read your posts, because shopping was an "outting" for me as well........Talk about your cheap thrills...LOL. I  live in a small town, and I was in the habit of getting all tuned-up before I would take a drive into the city.  So after I got clean, I could barely get in the car without horrible cravings, and I'd pout the whole way there....LOL. I still get a yen every once in awhile.  Narcs just made everything more fun!!! (for awhile. DON'T FORGET THAT).  Best wishes to you two---Peaz

[AlexisInTx]

Just wanted to say that the grocery store experience mirrors mine exactly.  I would take 2 or so Norco's before going grocery shopping (back when I actually felt good when I took them) and happily shop.  It was almost fun.  It was the one place that I felt I needed the hydro or at least wanted it.

It is strange that you mentioned it, because that was one of my biggest triggers.  Now when I take a couple of Vic's and go grocery shopping, I feel nothing but agitated for some reason.  I guess it's called tolerance. :(

[vettezr1]

Thanks everyone for the info, but I have to say I have been on IV morphine for alomost a year and ended it last week, and have no, NONE craving for it, in fact in the er they wanted to shoot me up and I refused. I have been taking the vicoden at night becuase of pain, but his stuff is making me sick,
Chezz Amen dude, when I can manage this back pain to a tolerable level I will never take this **** again???? how can people dream
of this **** like its a fond memory?? didnt you all turn inside out when you stopped taking it?

[lisabet]

Hi there...I can totally identify with your experience - I've been there myself; there's certain people or situations that has always made me want to "self medicate".  God - I thought it was only me. The one I have to fight almost weekly is when I go inside a grocery store to do food shopping.  I used to take several vicodin just to go to the store; it was almost a comforting feeling to do this.  I now dread going grocery shopping because I still feel compelled to do this. So while I used to spend an hour and a half to 2 hours in the store, I whiz in and out in 15 or 20 minutes.  I still miss that experience...weird, huh?  Lisabet

[theGolden1]

I thought addiction was a "conditioned response" ... even when you produce endorphins again, you are still subject to "triggers". It's funny ... an old friend called me that I haven't heard from in years. After we hung up, I had a desire to take more ultram. I didn't take it ... but I realized that talking about the past, when we were young and running around was a trigger. Ahh yes, people places and things.