THE LITTLE THINGS!!!!!!

[scaredmommie]

it amazes me how much we miss when we are using, your kids grow up and change, you change, you thing your the same as before you use and your not. i became moody, nasty, a thief, you name is. nowbefore i even started i was a bubbly person, that belived in karma. well now that im 11 days clean that person is coming back. it makes me sick of all the things a did. real sick. i hate who i was. and then also when your clean you enjoy the simplest of things, things that a person who has never used dont even notice it. like just now i went to get a drink and my kids are just laying there watching blues clues answering the questions, enjoying them selves. they look so cute, and i love it, i stood there and watched for min. it simple things i love that i never noticed specialy while using, like car rides to go somewhere, sits and watching a movie at home, talkng with your spouse at bed time, simple things like that, i treasure them now. i like being clear to everything not foggy. life is soooooooo great being clean.
<3 chrissy

P.S. sorry just some though i wanted to let out

[ABL4ME]

Awesome post!  I mentioned somewhere (lol...remember day 7) that I went for a walk this morning..very early, in a light rain and saw the most beautiful rainbow...do you know how many rainbows I've seen in my lifetime...that one really meant a lot to me today...so I do know where you coming from....

Oh same reason for the pain meds...back...and, amazingly enough...I feel NO pain in my back now that the meds are out of my life!

Please keep posts like this going...it's good to read on days like this :)))

Take care and Stay Strong,
Amy

[scaredmommie]

also i realized that it was making the pain worse, i started taking them for a back injury and all they did was make it worse, now that im off them i relize the pain really aint half what it was while i was using, now alli need is 2 asprins and call it a day. i thing my brain made the pain worse then what it was so i would keep feeding my brain the drugs and then after a while needed more to make my brain happy, you know? but now that they are gone the pain is more then half gone its not as bad as i though it was

<3 chrissy

[Kova]

i SO know what you mean!  i too did not realize how much the drugs were changing my personality!  i was becoming very mean and self centered and even a little paranoid.  i began to hate people, and i am in a health care profession.  i thought the drugs made me happy but they really just made me not give a sh*t about anything or anyone.

Kova