very intense, but simply put, thanks for sharing, you are heping those more than you realize:)
appreciative Don
Thanks, I would have never in a million years, thought I would be where I am today! quality time is what is needed. Have you ever heard of rational recovery? I believe it differs from AA in the respect that their philosophy (I believe) is that if you are doing things in your life that make you feel good about yourself, then "good" behavior naturally follows. Of course that is the over simplified view of it, but I have found that to be true. AA and NA helped me when I was just drinking, but I found that as time went on, and I gained more things material, and otherwise, I became lees inclined to want to risk what I had gained, by using. I have tried to resist the use of all kinds of meds, choosing instead to alter the dose of my methadone, to help me cope with things like menopause, depression etc. I take Trazadone for sleep, 300mg a night, which gives me great results, without any "hangover" effects. I decided, that at least for me, depression is a choice. When you have ****** up your life, I think that it isn't a stretch to be depressed about it! I told my Dr. " I'm not depressed, I'm disappointed, got a pill for that? Ha Ha! I think the lines get blurry, and we end up not knowing what the hell we are, but you know what? One thing I have learned, is that I tend to major in the minor so to speak, and if I focus on just living life, and "leave myself at the door" each day, I am much better off! I laugh when I can, as it really is the best medicine, and try not to drown in my own ****. Too old, too tired. I have had enough misery, for ten lifetimes. So victim or volunteer, half empty, half full. For me, as much as I hate to admit it! a lot of problems are my own creation, and I do my best to run my life now, "cafeteria style" I take what I need and leave the rest! A quote I read a long time ago, summed it up perfectly, it said"Don't saw sawdust!" take care, "drop in" anytime you want to talk! Nee
excellent advice...i just transitioned off methadone to suboxone in may..it was hell, i understand what you are saying about why you are on it...the benefits outweigh the risks for a lot of people, and it has saved their lives...it probably did mine too. but if this person you are writing to (hatewatin) ever wants to be drug free someday, then i would pass on the methadone just because it is near impossible to get off, but again this is a personal choice, and i understand it...
it sounds like you gave certainly turned your life around, and i know it would have been next to impossible for you to be where you are now...congratulations on the turn around!!! (i am an amy too, lol!)