I am here

[alicenwonderlnd]

Just wanted to be honest and say that I am here, but I have failed.  I have been taking 2 lortab a day since Thursday.  I feel like ****.  I really am going to stop again.  (I know you have heard that before,but I really want too.)  Mom having them in the house was just too much for me.  Not going to whine about it, just starting over.  Told her not to give them to me anymore.  (and to hide them really well)
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[jenny8575309]

Yeah alice, just have a back-up plan for next time to deal with 'triggers'  Relapsing can be dangerous tho, but each time you do it it seems like less of a big deal.  From experience relapsing over and over again made quitting no big deal to me.  I was used to failing, and pretty soon I didn't even look at it like that anymore.  Have you guys thought about NA?  It's a great program, great people, tons of fun, and it helps you get peace of mind, and serenity, so you won't really want to use anymore.  It helps fill the void in your life that quitting using drugs left.  I'd be happy to talk with either one of you about it.

[alicenwonderlnd]

Thanks.  I think I know what my trigger was or at least what a few of them are.  Proximity is a big prob.  I have 12 hours.  woo hoo.  Going out to get the immodium.  You all are so wonderful.  

[lexigirl]

I have been there and still am.I really am trying but sometimes I 'slip'. I want to quit so bad...it's in my mind to quit and it's been 3 days but I am taking one day at a time. I quit for 2 months before. Hang in there you can do it!

[lurker]

alice I couldn't possibly yell at someone who admitted to a relapse.  Hiding the relapse, that's a bad thing but admitting it and moving on is a sign of a desire to get clean.  Keep on fighting and you'll make it!!

[PromisedLand]

Yes, we've all been there..GA Guy says it right..pick yourself up, let us know how we can help...you can do it.


Jim

[GA Guy]

We won't yell because we've been there. You failed, so here's the chance to find out why you failed, and use that knowledge to not let it happen next time. What was the trigger that started this relapse? What can you do to stop that trigger next time? please, I know that guilt is a big thing in relapse, but don't let the guilt get you too down. It's not conducive to your recovery.

[alicenwonderlnd]

I sure wish someone would yell at me or something.