help getting off Lortab

[nilagirl]

I just found this board and am relieved to know there are others out there like me.  I need help getting off Lortab 10.  I have a lot of back pain and have been taking the pills for about 7 months.  It now takes more than 6 at one time to make the pain go away.  I'm scared for my health and I can't talk to anyone about this.  I'm a mom and I need to get back to my life, but I can't seem to do it.  I can't go to a doctor so I'm hoping someone here can give me some advice.

[nilagirl]

Thanks for your post.  I'm not mad at you and I understand everything you are saying.  Maybe I am taking things a little too personally.  You seem like a really nice person.  I hope you are doing ok today.

[cakegirl]

First of all, you should be here. Mostly because all of this is helping me and kissy and everyone else. I was not even thinking of disclosing anything to your kids. I would never. I was thinking of adults who gain some sick pleasure from weaking the character of any one else that they feel inferior to. I sooo believe that kids should not be forced to "parent" their parents because of the problems we brought on ourselves. I do think that living a better life and the daily actions of a healthy,mentally and physically, parent and role-model will shine through you and that is the honesty I speak of. The daily life clean, which I have not been able to do yet. The example our kids see and internalize on all levels, conscience and sub-conscience is what really matters. And more than anything knowing THEY are loved. Hope you stay, please?
your friend, K  Cakegirl

[nilagirl]

I was referring more to mram than you.  I am in no way hiding from myself, but I will not burden my children with this because of all the s**t I had to go through with my parents.  Kids should not have to worry about it.  They should just get to be kids.  Sorry if that's being a hypocrite, but I simply want them to get to be kids and enjoy it.  I didn't get that.  I had to be the parent of two drug and alcohol addicts from the time I was very young.  I am the parent now and I will take control of this without them having to worry.  I went through way too much at their age. I guess maybe I shouldn't have come here at all.

[cakegirl]

Nilagirl, Please do not take the words personally, I was in no way refering to you or your situation. my post was refering to things I have gone through with people in my past who wanted to hurt me by exposing my secrets. I do think honesty is very freeing, but I also pick and choose who I am honest with. Some people can't be told everyting, and sorry if I hurt your feelings. I sometimes speak in absoults, but who am I? I really like you and hope you reconsider leaving. I am really really sorry :( if you are still here pls let me know

[nilagirl]

Sorry, I thought this was a place to come for support and help... not to be judged.  I have very good reasons for wanting to keep this to myself.  You have no idea what type of life I have had or why I want to keep this to myself.  Your negative judgements is exactly what I don't need.  I won't be back.

[cakegirl]

right on. living with hypocrates all around. the saying the truth will set you free. well, it is true. Once you put yourself out there on the table for all to see, then nobody can really hurt you with anything, because you have already given it up. There are no secrets to uncover and soon those people lose interest in you and your stuff. There is no ability to control you with fear. The fear of exposure to your dark side, your sharing it willingly. HA HA to them. Love your philosophy sincerely, cakegirl-K