Please help! I have been on valium (low doses) here and there since the age of 16. For the last 10 years I have built up to at least 15 mgs. a day. Suffice it to say that all of this totals over a couple of decades. A cold turkeyed me from the valium last year in Jan. I stayed off of it for almost 2 months and pretty much lost it: hallucinations, voices, all the typical withdrawal stuff, etc. I wnet back on and went to a detox. They c/t'd me again. I became absolutely delusional. Went back on again. Did a slow taper of 1 mg. every 2 weeks and sufferred the whole time. I now have been off for over 4 months and I feel incredibly sick. I have been delusional to the point of hospitalization. No other meds. helped. I seem to remain very screwed up with something that feels like brain deterioration!
Here's what I need to know! Could I go back on to stop withdrawal or has the damage been done? I have tried to take a little piece to see if I could find relief. I think I do but I am afraid of hurting myself any further. Please help. In too much pain!
I'm not sure how many vics your taking in one day, but I was up to about 160mg of oxy contin a day, and If I could get vikes, I have taken about 20 a day, it gets ugly real quick. I recently started to take valium at night to keep me from buying oxy. But since you have been taking both I don't know what to recommend. Your taking a minimal amount of xanax so I would think staying with that would be fine. See, I took methadone to come clean and it worked great, but I don't think methadone (wafer not liquid) with xanax would be a great combination, or maybe it would be ok, I don't know, thats a question for kip. In any case, Its a tough situation because I"m not the most knowledgeable person, I only speak from experience. The methadone didn't get me high, but it can still be very addictive for someone like myself because it made me feel "normal" like I did before I popped any pills. I wish you the best of luck, but my advice is to DO THIS UNDER A DOCTORS SUPERVISION, if you can......... good luck, keep posting
GWH
Good luck with dealing with your pain. I know it isn't easy. I don't think any of us here meant to judge you, and if it came off that way, it is because there are those who will use this forum in ways it is not meant to be used. It was wrong to presuppose that's what you were doing and if I contributed to making you feel that way I would like to offer my apologies. I wish you only the best and hope that you find relief from your pain soon. I applaud your decision to stay of the narcotics, especially in this time of need. You serve as an example to us all.
I can't recommend that anyone "play" with methadone and benzos as my experiences led to repeated ods. The "lady meth" retarded the benzo action which led to increased dosing and.......wham: od. Detox, traeatment facility and one day at a time.
Thanks GWH. The pain is real, I truly don't even like pain medication - it's just not me. I am currently on something stricltly over the counter and herbal. I've even discussed the other pain med's with my doctor and warned of what I thought was high potential for abuse. Thank you, all of you, for your concern and care.
I'm glad to hear things are going well, however, if the pain is too severe you should take care of it, nobody here wants to see another go through "true" pain. I say that because I used to use pain that didn't exist as an excuse. In anycase, I hope all is well, stay in touch, and if you need anything......this entire forum is yours.
GWH