is anyone still awake?

[addicted_to_vicoprofen]

I thought that mentally I was OK with taking a pain pill if the pain in my ankle was unbearable.  It's almost been 8 days c/t.  My ankle is still continuing to swell (despite icing/elevation).  I have reached my daily IBU limit.  But, I'm in tears, partially from the pain, but partially because I don't know what to do.  I don't want to take the pill to get high or feel fuzzy (wow, never thought I'd say that), but I'm so tired and in so much pain, I want, I need, some relief.  My fiance wanted to take me back to the ER.  He thought maybe if we went and I got a shot rather than taking the pill, I would feel better because it was a dosage controlled by the doc.  But mentally I feel the same about a shot as I do a pill.  Once I get that taste, will I be able to stop?  I know it makes it a bit more difficult with me if he is giving me my pills and has the bottle under lock and key, but lets face it, I'm an addict, if I want the pills, I get them some how, some way.  I'd like to lie and say I'm strong enough not to do it, but it's only been 8 days ( I say only because after 4 years of abuse, 8 days is like 24 hours in some cases ).  I have no craving for the drug, my head feels so great, so clear, I'm so afraid that I will risk 8 of the best days I've had in a long time because I freakin broke my ankle and can't stand the pain.  I KNOW I sound like a complete baby.  In the scheme of things, my dilemma is not all that severe.  I had an unbelievably easy w/d (i'm still in shock), I have a fantasic job, a supportive fiance, a loving family, a gorgeous son and 2 awesome cats - there are people on this forum struggling to have those things.  

Again, I know that noone here can TELL me whether or not to take a pill, but is there somenoe up who can give me a little support, advice or direction?  

Hope everyone is having a blessed evening.  I pray for each of you in your individual recovery.

Corrine

Oh, any oxybliss, if you read this, I had a dream about you....I bought like 1500.00 worth of business suits from you on Ebay - not sure where that came from.

[grievingwidow]

Hi there, so sorry you are in such pain.  My personal thoughts may not be the same as the majority here, but I don't think you should have to suffer in your current situation.  I also think a shot might be the best way to go, but that is just a guess.  I just really don't think you should put yourself through such pain if you don't have to.  Do what you think is best.  Check in with us later and let us know how you are.  I will be up for at least another hour or so if you want to talk.

Love, Cindy

[tztlady]

So sorry to hear about the pain you are in;  In my opinion, I think going to the ER for a shot would be a good choice.  You weren't addicted to shots and you are right, it would be a controlled dose.  I am off norcos now but will be having elective surgery in July and will have to be on meds then.  I am not looking forward to it at all but I have a great friend who has been in recovery from addiction for twenty years who will hold my meds and give them only as prescribed.
It is a tough call.  There are times we will need meds for severe pain.  Especially as we grow older.  Have you tried Aleve?  I was surprised at how well it worked for my back pain.  Actually I was a little embarrassed to know I could have had more pain relief from one aleve than I did from three vicodens....ooops!

[addicted_to_vicoprofen]

between you two and my fiancee, I made the decision to go back to the ER and get a shot.  So, we are going to hobble away (it sucks to live in a 2nd floor condo).  My son is visiting his friend all weekend because of my ankle, so after the hospital, we are going to go to a hotel so I don't have to get back up the stairs.  

Thanks for the support and advice.  I want a little relief, and I truly need some sleep.  Luckily we live in a rather small town (at least when the college students are gone) so when he called the ER the secretary said there is not one patient waiting for care so I'll be in and out probably.  Thank you ladies.  Hope you get some sleep tonight!

Corrine

[road2recovery]

Damn i hate to see you in so much pain--but i think go get  a shot..Do what you think is best..But i know u know wht that is...but when u are really hurting...That is tough,..buT remember u are tough..
god bless u my friend

[K Todd]

Hi,

You know, just from reading this post and your post above, you are a very honest and humble person (if you ask me)

You are so right, if were honest - we are all addicts, who need help. I am just now down to 5 Hydro's a day, but in all reality WE CAN"T DO THIS ALL BY OURSELFS.

It is times like now, when you just have to cry out to our Loving Jesus Christ, and Pray for His help. I'm not here to preach, but I know EXACTLY what your saying, on being of them for 8 Days, and how good your feel with clarity in your mind.

I'm so sorry in so much pain, and if you already head out to the ER, you'll know you had a humble hearted man praying for you.

You know, my knee pain was so bad, the doc said that I was going to have to have surgeory. We'll by the Grace of God, I have been pain free for over a week, and not just pain free - but the recent xrays confirmed HEALED, it was nothing I did!!! - That is why I don't need the Hydo's anymore!

I'll be Praying, as soon I finish my last words here, CRY OUT to Jesus, and keep Fighting the Good Fight of Faith !  - GOD BLESS YOU!

Todd