Write a journal about how horrible withdrawals are/were while it is still fresh in your head. Write down all your fears, worries and everything. Write down how you felt while you were on the pills. I am on day 23 and doing great. My mom, dad, cousins, aunts & friends are all addicts but I am using them as a learning tool. I have been writing in my journal all the time and I plan to use it if the time ever comes up that I feel like taking anything again. I wrote in there all about the way my head felt, the sneezing, the vomitting, diarrhea, shakes, not being able to sleep, not wanting to talk to anyone, just write EVERYTHING!!!! It helps to keep looking back on that if you have to. You will do great! You have the worst over with and just remember why you quit, you were unhappy! Good luck! I'm rooting for you!
The thing is I quit my job about a eight months ago because all I would do is go to work and cry. I'm Bipolar and wasn't on meds for it at the time and well it was definatly interfering with my work. I got that under control and have been looking for a job for a couple months now. I live at home with my mom and dad now. The person I was talking about was my father he is an opiade abuser and alcoholic. I wouldn't say I have friends anymore because they were all users and I am trying to get out of that. I have thought about staying with family in West Virginia but I really need to find a job so I will have the ability to move.
Hi Hun!
So good to hear from you. I heard that mom posted today but I didn't get the chance to see it.
I am glad you are scared. that is a good thing.
Why are you going back there? Can yous stay with mom? A friend? Anything?
Recovery is selfish and it is about YOU. you have to do whatever it takes.
Hope you are still around...
You need to establish relationships with clean and sober people. Go to AA or NA and listen for a while. Try several meetings, don't give up if you don't like the first one. You'll eventually hear someone you can really relate to. When they offer to pass out the phone list, take one. You can connect and that's the only thing that kept me clean and sober for over 10 years. My relapse occurred in part because I was no longer connected to people who understood addiction and who could have helped me stay off the pills had I stayed connected.
You have done the easy part - getting off staying off is hard work but it is so worth it!