no one for support

[seekinghelp2008]

i wish i had someone has anyone watched the show intervention  man i just want to shake my family and ask why the hell they havent loved me enough to notice everyone says things but they are all too afraid because they think they are responsible  anyway i never have had anyone take care of me and through the years ive been at points in my life that were truly defining and i'm at that point once again ive left the man that broke me down for years and am once again ready to turn my life around i just pray this is the last time  i believe it is because i'm a mother now it has to be  please keep me in your prayers

[TRMs_wife]

If you are the apple of your dads eye then you have him to hellp you. Your dad loves you!!!! Think about how much it would hurt him to know how bad you are hurting and you didn't go to him for help??? I bet it would kill him inside and when he did find out he would say honey why didn't you tell me??? I love you no matter what. You need to talk to daddy and have him on your side

[seekinghelp2008]

thanks for your support.  I can't believe the attacks coming my way from my ex.  today is a tough one the freaking headache is killing me and just the overall anxiousness but I don't want to leave the house.  My ex is coming to get my daughter for his evening w/ her and I'm going to force myself to get out for a walk.  Today is day 3

[dominosarah]

I understand what you are saying.  The pressure can really get to us but i will tell you this.....Getting off the pills will give you a freedom like no other.  I came here in April of this year with 47 yrs of pain and failures, 3 failed marriages etc. and a 30 plus year addiction to drugs and alcohol.  Today i am over 7 months clean.  It has been alot of hard work and digging deep within myself to see why i abused chemicals.  I am a work in progress everyday.  It is very liberating.  The painful things in our past hurt and we think we are numbing ourselves up but we really arent.  We only add to our misery.  You are important and i think it is time for you to take care of yourself and your daughter.  We will help you get off the pills.  There is so much support here and encouragement so please stay here and keep posting.  You can do this and get better.  Life is waiting for you.                  sara

[seekinghelp2008]

oh I'm addicted to VICODIN  and it ***** the big one!!!  and I actually have no one I just got divorced from a hell of a guy ya he really was an *** very controlling manipulative and honestly no love there couldn't turn to him if my house was on fire and I have custody of my daughter tells ya a little about him.  Don't get me wrong he would say well I will take our daugther but you're on your own  anyway my family has always viewed me as the "perfect" one ther's 4 kids and believe me the divorce has brought so many issues up that I want to approach my dad and say hey this is actually who I am and you have no choice but to love me for who I am so here I am accept me love me or refuse me it's your choice but my dad is my dad who raised me I'm the apple of his eye and never have wanted to let him down it's all real heavy **** so i've always dealt w/ this **** on my own along w/ other **** and the divorce had brought out all the burried **** i've never dealt w/ anyways this isn't a therapy session but maybe now you can see why i seek and am so concerned w/ numbing myself

[dominosarah]

What are you addicted to??

[coldsweats]

I watch the show and I shake my head too.  I am always in shock at how addicted these people get and then I realize I'm an addict too.  I finally told my husband and he is so supportive.  It finally made since to him why I was the way I was for the past year.  You need to tell your family.  Its a weight off your shoulders.  I am actually picking my mom up tomorrw and plan on taking her to see a doctor with me to help with depression.  I wish you all the best of luck.  Having the suppport f your family makes a huge difference.  BTW they do love you!!  I believe in you...!!!  You can do it!