tryin to come down off of precription meds at home

[DarkAngel]

i first started doing hydrocodone in february of 2001. For no medical reason I did them for the high i moved on to stronger painkillers like percocets,oxyicodine,even oxyicotin a couple months later.4 months ago i weined my self down to no painkillers. I got stressed and started taking them again this time i only stick to the hydrocodone. I take around 5 pills a day. (5milligrams) I started weining my self todayand it's been un comfortable as far as the aches and pains are there any success storys on weining from home or do you have any tips on how i can make my self more comfortable I don't feel as if i'm far enough in this for inpatient treatment. Like i said before I've gotten off of far stronger pain killers.I really wanna do it this time I am a mother of 5 children 3 livin and 2 angel babies I have a lot to live for and i don't wanna lose my life behind a high i don't wanna be in a treatment center because I have a family that is very dependant upon me and i really need to be here for them. Ive been taking these pain killers for close to 8 months and i'm ready to to get my life back. any word of incouragement will be well apprechiated.
thanks
DarkAngel

[Brandiola]

Please help me!!! The first step is admitting that you have a problem. That you are powerless over drugs and need help. Well... that's me. I started taking hydroccodone for severe stomach pain. I've had 3 c-sections, a gastric bypass that allowed me to lose 150 lbs, and just recently a surgery to rmove excess skin from my stomach. NOT a tummy tuck but close. Insurance wouldnt pay for the whole thing. Im from Las Vegas and lortab are a dime a dozen. My mother in law was giving them to me just for fun sometimes. She's also an addict. I used to be addicted to meth and that detox was nothing like what I've experienced when I run out of pills. I honestly feel like I cant function without them. I'm so jealous of everyone who is off of them and I feel so hopeless and helpless. I started just taking 1-3 a day of the 10mg... but recently I've taken up to 20 a day!! This is sick right? I still have pain but the line between pain and taking them for pleasure is so blurred I dont know where I am anymore. I've tried going to emergency rooms and urgent cares just to see if they will prescribe me more because I litterally took a month's prescription in a week! What is wrong with me????? Quitting meth was so kuch easier than this. Does that sound crazy??? OMG i feel like im losing my mind. Yesterday was my first day without any. Of course I went to the urgent care, but now that I live in Texas... dr's here are very scetchy about prescribing it. They gave me 10 pills. I knew there would be detox symptoms but i neverthought I would feel like this!!!!! Please help me God!!!! I took 10mg just to take the edge off and get to sleep but now it's 2am here in texas and I am tripping out!!! I dont want to take them. I took another 10mg a few mins ago just to get the shakes to go away. I have 6 pills left 5mg each. How can I use these best to get off this damn roller coaster??? I feel so helpless. Did I already say that?  My parents both battled drug addiction (meth, heroin, and more) and won. I grew up going to NA meetings and still  became an addict!!! I know all the steps, I know it works. Thats how I got myself off meth. I started getting off for my kids, then did it for myself. I have a wonderful husband who is here helpoing me thank god but has to go back to work very soon and i will be alone with the kids. Im so scared. Today I could not even pickk up my baby who is 1 years old. Maybe I need to go to an NA meeting. Ihavent been there in so long, but I know the steps work. Sorry if Im going on and on but i neeeed help please!!!! I read almost all of your posts and I feel there will be light at the end of the tunnel. If you could email me privately that would be great. I think I need a sponsor. I think I need a meeting. Both my parents are dead now (mom killed on her motorcycle and dad dies from hep C) and I know they would tell me the same thing. 30 meetings in 30 days. O God please help me!!!!!  

[BeachBob]

Keep it up. I am 2 days in and I so want to go grab something to make me feel a little happy. I know at the end of this I get my natural high back. Dude, join NA or PA, they are real fun groups...I've been going for a week or so.

[BeachBob]

I am on day 2 coming 6-10 10/325 Norcos per day. I have read many horror stories on certain forums. Raptor's adivce is excellent. I am using Clonidine and if things get real bad my dr gave me some Xanax. I feel ok. I am very sad, anxious at times and sleeping about 6 hours. I just know that the first 72 hours is the worst and in a week I may feel pretty close to normal. Then I have my life back,,,my head clear.

Let me add, go tell your doctor the whole truth. Me, I was the biggest liar to 6 really great MDs. I regret that thoughly. They will help. We are self-medicators...I am doing what he said and I am winning. Don't read the horror stories stay positive. Its not really as bad as the flu for me.

[hyro55]

wow, feel like I missed the train. The last post on this site was back in Jan., 2002. Did everyone die or just discontinue this site? Man, am on fourth day of self-detox from hydros, oxys, etc. Has been constant back and forth trying to quit, making it for a few days to a week or so and feeling so down emotionally and drained physically, that I would convince myself, now that I have quit for a week, I am no longer addicted; therefore, it is safe to just buy a few to help with the down moodiness I am feeling. Of course, in a week or so am right back on the same destructive journey again.

[sunny1]

How did the Ultram withdrawal go?  I am in the dark part of hell with Ultram right now and am unsure how to proceed.  AA/NA helped
I went to a decent Pysc Doc who said reduce by 15% per week.  No meds to help me...nothing.  I feel like I am on the way out but I do not want to go.  I too have a mom who I visit sometimes when I am sick.  She could not help me if she tried.  All the doc's and meds in the world she could pay for would not make me quit...It is only my will to live that comes from my soul causing me live to stop this sorry drug nad choose life
Thanks
Sunny

[billyb0b]

Hi everyone. I am on day 9 of my detox from hydrocodone, about 15 10/650's a day. I was also taking 5 to 6 10mg ambiens per day. It got to the point where I was taking ambien during the day to calm me down. I detoxed from an outpatient program using Buprenorphine, clonidine, and trazedone for sleep. I am still very tired and achy although I can deal with it. Its the chills and inner coldness that is killing me. Also, only 2 to3 hours of sleep a night. I expected that because of the ambien. Does anyone know how long these chills will last. I thought they would be gone by the ninth day. I have been taking the hydrocodone for about 4 years off and on. I do suggest buprenorphine for detoxing if you can.