In to the 16th day, and things are slowly improving

[KRC1959]

At 16 days I can fully understand how everyone who has and is and are going to go through this hell. We have to see Satan himself to realize, I want to be up above him where things are a lot cooler. No this hasnt been easy, and I still have a long journey ahead of me. Most of my sypmtoms have dissapeared, Still occasionally some brain fog, and sleepness,  but most everthing else is OK, Some of you heal quicker and feel better sooner and some of us take a little longer.  But we all go through the same thing. I still at times get like a heavy feeling around the eyes like they are just wired, But I am not looking back. Just in the few days that I havent posted, there are a number of different names here, This Disease we have is Widespread, Addiction really sucks no matter what the addiction is. I would have never thought that 80 milligrams of Percocet a day, for a year would Kick my butt. Am I 100 percent? NO, but I will take each day as it comes. For those of you in the heart of your battle, THINK POSITIVE, and keep posting, There are some Phenomenal people on here, Including myself, even though the last few days I havent posted, I have a list of people here that were and are so kind to me, and I feel very poorly for not jumping in the last few days, but we all have our times at the beginning of recovery that we just Need for ourselves, Its not selfishness, Its part of the healing process, Or so Ive learned, and am still learning, Do not relinguish those evil thoughts during your initial WDs,  If I can do this, CT and work, and be alone, I KNOW the rest of you can and will succeed, I KNOW IT> Look at all the people posting who have time under thier belts, and they are still recovering. Listen to what they have to say, and take it to heart, BECAUSE thats what I did and I am at 22824 minutes. And I have felt almost every one of those minutes. And I sure as heck dont want to relive those, And to think I was just counting minutes at the beginning and even 60 of them just seemed so tough. You have to be resilent and determined, and willing to listen to these people on this forum.It has been a god send for me. But my JOURNEY has now become a lifetime of recovery, And if you dont see a response to one of your posts or feel down, Just think of that saying (FOOTPRINTS IN THE SAND)  and know that even though you dont see or hear from some of us, WE ARE CARRYING YOU ON OUR SHOULDERS  during your dark times. You all have definitely carried me through 16 days, Along with my PITBULL determination. IF you would have seen the few days that I cried like others, You would have thought, Why is the full grown Man crying. Well you all know the answer. So I am Inspired and in Awe of so many of you caring people, And even though I am still recovering, Know that I will be here to help, when I feel I am at the right moment for it. AND BOY have I have some great stories to tell of the last few days at the PONDEROSA.  Laughs and Humor will be on soon. Thank you all, EVERYBODY, and I know Exactly who you all, and there are a lot of you, and some that are specia to me, and also you know who you are. KEEP the FIGHT GOING, ONE FOOT in FRONT of the OTHER, as I did,
                                  God Bless                              JayDean

[KRC1959]

I also read what you have to say,and post and you are as you said I am. I am definitely proud of you and your accomplishments, and just keep it in your head that if we stay on the right path, And I know we will, I will always be chasing you for those days that you have ahead of me,LOL. So we are both winners along with many other fellow addicts here, Damn, I am so competitive that I dont like losing, and now Ill never catch you. But I will take a Silver, under a Gold Medal anyday. Thanks so much, So now we have a lifetime competition. Smile for you deserve it.                                  JayDean

[wantlifeback]

You are such a caring and wonderful person and i love your posts.  You have done an amazing job and even though i am a bit ahead of you in my time clean, your posts help me so much.

Great job on your 16 days...that is so fantastic.  keep up the great work!  Hope you feel better soon.

[KRC1959]

Thank you both for the kind words.  Lauren, It is nice to know that in one way or another, I have somehow helped you. My mother always told me when I was growing up, that you always try and help someone out, even if you dont get a thank you for it, as one way or another, It will come around to you in a circle, Canada is a beautiful place, I lived in Alaska for two years so I can appreciate the beauty of it. And also know Lauren that you do have the strength to do this, just as I did, or am doing, Not all of us can go CT, but regardless you will accomplish this magnificent feat, and feel like your at the top of MNT Everest. We are all pulling for you and here for you, and also KNOW that the words you just said to me will help me keep going. Anything I can do to help, Please just ask, and when you do take those few days off, just keep posting here, or PM me or ask anybody, anything. I AM STRONG ENOUGH to help Pull your Rope with you.                                    JayDean

[newhope61]

I've also been following your  posts since you started your journey and although you've gone through so much pain, I so admire your strength and determination.  Some of your stories made me laugh and its'been so long since i've had a good laugh and other stories made me just so darn proud of you, even though I don't know you. I know you had a really hard time, but you persevered and helped so many others, like me, through it.  I'm just beginning my journey, but don't have quite the strength to do it while working like you did, just waiting to be able to take a few days off.
Wishing you all the best, and keep up the awesome work,
lauren

[addictedme]

what an upbeat post,,,ty

[KRC1959]

You two are and have been a big part of my Story. There are many others too. Now I have to give you both Congratulations on your time clean and your help to me and others. Please dont stop, as you might not realize how Important you two are to everyone. SMILE, SMILE,,,,,,,  Two great People,         JayDean

[flmagi]

Yes, you really are sounding great!  And never feel selfish about this time for you, we all have to take that time.  Just hearing your story will encourage others and give them hope.
We are just so damm proud of you!
Waiting for the stories, Lil Joe.  Hows Adam?
Hugs to ya,
Magi

[allaboutmary]

You are sounding so much better. Just wait until a month is up.  I really started feeling good at a month.  Congrat's on day 16 !     Stay strong tuff guy !    Mary