progress and reflection

[frootbar]

well, it's been just over two weeks now, minus one day of a migraine when i slipped, but
so far, no meds, and it's better all the time.
it seemed a horrible task to undertake at the time, but i think i'm getting somewhere.  i now
don't miss them really.  i'm sitting on a pile of 'em, i hid on myself, and yes, there is a touch
of temptation, but not nearly as much as i would have thought.
i like the feeling of no meds, and i'm going to track any positive physcial changes that occur,
and post them.  i've had some bizzarre things happen, and i've always wondered if they could
be opiate-induced or aggravated.  so we'll see i guess.
but, so far so good.
it's made me ponder the whole situation more i guess, all the people who just don't have problems
with opiates, but ssri's, benzo's, the whole spectrum.  we have tons of people out there on auto-pilot full of ssri's.  i think i may have zapped my liver over the years, the bloodwork says no, but i'm not
buying it.  anyway, thanks to the supportive people and positive outlooks, encouragement.
i may faulter, but i'm trying hard to keep it clean.
fb.

[frootbar]

thanks for the support....i feel way better now, and i have no desire
for them so far....i've got to ingrain in my mind it's not necessary...

[want2bmeagain]

Congratulations on 2 weeks. I am on 2 weeks as well. We just have to be strong and continue looking out to others for support and guidance. I do agree with Goingtomakeit; knowing that you have a stash around may make it harder. I certainly know that if I had a stash somewhere, I would not trust myself. When I first attempted in November, I tore my house apart moving furniture around, looking through pockets, purses, etc. I found so much that I gave in and I can never see myself to doing that again. I have hurt myself and my body, and after the progress I have made so far, I am so greatful knowing that it is all out of my house. Hang in there hon. I am here if you need someone to talk to. You can pm if you'd like. Take care and I wish the best for you.

[frootbar]

ha, yeah, i think i'm tempting fate maybe...with the stash, the only
reason i got it was i owed some pills to a friend who had lent me some for my horrific migraine, so i couldn't not return them.  so, yes,
it's kind of crazy, but it's like when i quit drinking years ago, i felt i
had to be able to cope in the real world with temptations all round,
maybe a nutty theory, but i also would probably use them if i got a
terrible migraine, so i'm working on getting something else for those,
that is non-opiate.
don't want to use them GTM, i feel pretty darn good as you so aptly
put it.  i'm looking forward to it getting better, thanks!

[GoingToMakeIt]

From here on out it gets better. You will like being clean. Congratulations on 2 weeks. That is good. Are you sure it is smart to keep a stash around? Very few people can make it with that kind of temptation. Good luck with things.