well i think u know ur alcoholic!were u having problems with depression b4 u EVER picked up ur first drink?alcohol is central nervous system depressant so it does cause MORE depression when consumed in large amounts.there are anti-depressants and anti-anxiety agents that work well....u cannot mix alcohol with them.there are some that don't work well with alcoholics.its a try and see thing.In the USA here is a good pill called Campral,it cuts the craving for alcohol.Stopping smoking and drinking at the same time is too much,the alcohol should go first then the cigarettes when ur mentally ready.U HAVE been able to have some periods of sobriety....when u quit drinking b4 did u go thru any withdrawal the first 72 hours?that is usually the worst.....u sound malnourished from the drinking and that will cause ur symptoms on top of drinking....there has to be a clinic there geared for alcoholism and a guy ur age.....has 2 b!
all of the medicine in the world will not help you unless you really want help there are pills that might help the craving i may be wrong but it sounds like you have to much time on your hands do you work if not keep your self busy with things try AA oor whatever groups are there if you dont need to work others need help donate time to people who need it . also all of the detox places can only do so much the rest is up to you, i know you are going through a hard time and you will think i am full boloney and i use the worl loosley but watch this forumn and i think you will understand a lot of things and maybe benifit by the problems others have or had also sounds like you are down on life in genral, you need something to take the place of alcohol and wake up and start a new day soon maybe you will have something to look forward to do you have friends that do not drink. remember there are lots of good things out there plese let us know how things go lots luck jo
Hi, Thanks for your reply and support. That is very kind of you.
I will try to keep this brief, but I do tend to ramble on.
I went through a really bad time,quite a long time ago, that resulted in me having a "mental breakdown". That is the only way that I can describe it. The doctors that I tried to see, did not understand the level of stress that caused me to begin shaking uncontrolably when I tried to explain the problems that I was having. I was getting up at 5 am and taking phone calls for morning reports before going to the clients office at 7:30 for a daily meeting that lasted until 9:30 and then going to my office for another briefing at 10:30 followed by the usual paperwork and management of a multimillion £ project. I was constantly interrupted during the day by urgent phone calls and other disruptions. Frequently, the first oportunity that I had to take a break was for a cup of tea at about three in the afternoon and did not get home until after 8 pm.
I found myself standing in front of an open cupboard door at about 10pm one night and did not know why I was standing there. I don't know how long I had been there and did not know what to do.
I had obviously gone there to get something to cook for supper and then, just shut down.
It took me years to recover from that breakdown and I could not find any medical advice to help me. One reason was that I was so unwell that I could not help myself to get help.
Since then I have gone through a cycle of recovery and relapse. I have tried so many different doctors and treatments including 5 weeks in a clinic, that have only made things worse, by being tranquilised 24 hrs a day, drugged up to the eyeballs. I don't even want to describe some of the other events that have occured and reduced me to the current position where I sleep as much as possible. I never go out socially and try to go out shopping for food for the dogs and myself during the siesta. I am not looking after my dogs properly and certainly not looking after myself.
All of this behaviour seems to me to be independant to the alcohol consumption, medication, attempts to take excercise or outside interests. I just end up drinking in moderation (more than advised by the doctors) and waiting until the day that has come eventually, many times before, when I can actually get up out of bed and do something. This active period does not last very long before having a relapse. The longest has been 7 months before a major relapse last year resulting in my loosing my job. ( I did not drink one drop of alcohol during this time and took prescribed medication throughout the period. The medication had been started some months before this time.
It is time for me to stop this email or else I will end up bothering you.
Sorry for it being so long.
I just wish I could take your advice, like a tablet, and WAKE UP, that is exactly what I want to do and cannot.
are u drinking or under influence when u post here?u have Campral over there?
Never think that you are bothering anybody on this forum when you are looking for help!!
You will find lots of good guidence and support on here.Very caring people on here who
have been through same situations.Keep on posting!! dixie
You see this is the best part about the medhelp site....there are many, many caring people who would love to help you. Please don't ever think that you are being a pest!! Besides, the more info we get the more we can maybe help. God Bless you.
I read your emails ..and my heart went out to you...I hope things have got better for you, I also have driven my car while pissed, I had a crash an did a runner..an that and the fact that my friend died of alcohol...I went to the doc about 8vweeks ago now and have only had 2 relapses...He gave me tablets called libruim ..i started with 8 a day and am now down 2 only 3...I no i have nt been sober very long...but thats along time for me, I like you have 2 dogs whom i love dearly an mean the world 2 me, Maybe the tablets might work for you ...they dont make u drowsey...An anything is worth ago.. I wish you luck..and you will find this forum will help you ..everyone is caring and will never judge you.
nice 2 hear from u....william and i have been emailing and i haven't heard from him in 2 weeks......cannot help but wonder if he passed away..i'd have no way of knowing...william r u still with us?