hope for alcoholics and families

[Wolfwind]

sorry this isn't a question. I would like to offer some hope to all of you on the forum. I have gone to hell and back with alcohol, and lived to talk about it. I have 19 years of recovery, and baby it isn't easy, but it IS WORTH IT! Lets see, some of the things that I did in my drinking career...blamed everyone for everything that happened in my life, unless it was good and then of course I had to have credit for that! Ran naked through the streets, thinking it was funny, vomited all over and then drank some more because I had to show how tough I was, denied that their was anything wrong with me, and got angry if YOU pointed out I MIGHT have a problem with alcohol, lyed, manipulated, asked YOU to cover up my problems, like missing work and calling the boss for me, bail me out of jail,  got mad and drank at YOU, had a gun to my head and was going to shoot myself so I could get sympathy, any way the list goes on forever.
What I learned is: I am not the only person that feels the way I do, I am not alone, and I can reach out for help  when it hurts bad enough and no one is left to rescue me from me.  I turned to a famous recovery movement called AA. Some others weren't so fortunate and died. I also found Alannon Family groups for Families of Alcoholics (or just plain alcohol users)  Alcoholism and abuse is a family problem and effects everyone around the problem drinker, well heck, I was around all sorts of them and they sure affected my life so I qualified!  I learned so many things from these two groups that now I have a freedom in my life and hope, that I never imagined is possible!!  The strength and education I got from others was instrumental in my life, so I went back to college at age 43 and got my Bachelors is Social Work so that I can HELP others to find their way in this lost world. I just beg any of you, if you are lost and scared, please pick up the phone and call  a support group,  so one of the people like mecan get that Alanon or AA call. This is what makes my life worth living, to give back what was so freely given to me...love...understanding and most of all HOPE!

[ibizan]

u'll hear and read a lotta things outta me u've probly never heard b4......i b-lieve it is a good thing!Big old irish gal i met years ago....Rosie sed this at a meeting"When i got sober i had 2 learn how 2 revolve around the world....and that it didn't revolve around me'!!OUCH...and so true!

[dark69meat]

Thanks-- you're keeping me busy, it's beautiful.  I still feel naked or my personality is exposed all of a sudden, but don't mind.  I don't know how to act in public without booze in my system. It's weird….

"Sober death is death with dignity!"...never heard that before.

[ibizan]

never 2 late dude.....i worked with 2 men ages 68 and 72 who became sober.one is still living and sober and the other is deceased of natural causes.Sober death is death with dignity!

[dark69meat]

I just want my brain back the way it was, hope it's not too late.  Day 10 sober...wow; everything is clearing up or starting to.

[ibizan]

ur already cutting off his oxygen by denying urself the alcohol.

[dark69meat]

The beast must die before it kills me.  I can't be tortured any longer with a this slow painful death.

[ibizan]

Cunning baffling and powerful is this BEAST who can ensnarl u in its tentacles.Sobriety and determination is the knife that cuts it!

[dark69meat]

" overcome this Beast......we MUST!..."   good choice of words!

[ibizan]

U go boy!i'm with you and happy u saw the light.U have a lot to offer people here in this forum and out in the world!I had to grab this disease by the nuts at age 28 before it killed me.No matter what age in life we can overcome this Beast......we MUST!

[dark69meat]

That's a very powerful and positive message.  I'm currently working on a plan to free myself from a disease that seems to have a grip on me.