not sure if i'm an alcoholic

[littlea34]

Hi, this is my first time on this website or any help website for that matter, so i'm feeling a bit nervous.  I have a family history of alcoholism and it terrifies me that i'm going the same way.  i'm sitting here trying to make excuses for why i drink but at the end of the day they're just excuses.  Basically i come home from work most evenings and pour my self 2 maybe 3 glasses of red wine - not all at once of course!!! then i feel guilty and have 2 or 3 cups or herbal tea - yes herbal tea, i'm one of those condesending gits that tries to eat organic, consumes no caffeine then guzziles wine !
I feel this is more of a habit than an addiction as if i'm busy i'm not too bothered.  

I'm a full time working mum, i have a great husband and family.  I have a great job - a little stressful at times but thats the way i like it,  i like to do the best i can at mostly everything, unfortunatley i suffer from bouts of depression.

I just what to find a happy medium, where i dont feel guilty and i can start enjoying life to the max.  At the moment i feel like i'm stuck in a rut!!

[dominosarah]

SensibleinSarnia was the dudes name.......

[rod44]

Hi,
I can identify with the sense of humor lol....

I go for pre surgical risk assessment on Tuesday next so they will decide then

Ray

[ibizan]

we r grateful for u 2 here...we r smart cookies and smell a louse er i mean mouse hahahah......i have  keen sense of humor and it serves to help me preserve whats left of my sanity.....we just keep forging thru!when is that surgery?

[rod44]

Hi I am happy and comfortable in my sobriety.
when it comes to  execising my responcabilitys to others who look for help like you and sara and the other good people on here I am always glad to be of help, I do not let Small minded people upset me.
keep up the good work guys :)

Ray

[ibizan]

i cannot recall the name of the guy who posted was very anti-12 step..had real long posts and got quite nasty and medhelp had to delete him.this puts me in the mind of him only this is more polite but twisted rationalizations about the wifes drinking and informing others they are not alcoholic.....similiar to x-posters!many hoaxsters have been booted and come back on under new names!Twilight Zone opening music is playing!

[rod44]

One flew east one flew west one flee over the cuckoos nest!!!