Urgent Doctor wants me off meds

[hell1971]

My doctor announced to me yesterday that she wants me to come off my medication and go med free, this scares me, this doctor is new, my previous doctor of 3 years said I would need to be on medication for the rest of my days. She said because of my severe memory loss I needed to come off Rispiridone, I also saw my GP yesterday and he said this medication doesnt have memory loss as a side effect and was concerned with her decision, she has been against this medication since day one and wanted me to change over to different meds but I have tried the meds she wanted me to change to and they were too sedating and I gained weight. I have just lost 18kgs and do not want to go on weight gaining meds, I think she is trying to swap me over and this is her way to do it, I think she knows I will go manic and then she will get me on them, I have been fairly steady on my current meds, in fact the best I have been for 3 years so I dont know what she is thinking, I am worried, I would love nothing more to be med free but is this realistic, I dont want to get sick again. On the one hand she says theres a fine line between my hypomania and going full blown manic and then she does this I dont understand. When I told my husband he had horror on his face lol haha but seriously I dont want to end up in hospital, what do i do?

[hell1971]

I dont think I have any options apart from refusing to take her advise, but then she may refuse to prescribe when I run out. I cant get a second opinion, she is a pdoc, im in NZ so its on National Health I dont pay for it so I have to take who I am given, I think im just going to have to accept her decision and make sure everyone around me keeps an eye on me and if things go wrong deal with it then, I know my old doctor would totally disagree with what shes doing but what can I do, my GP said if things go bad we know what combo works and I can just go back on it, i mean she cant make me take meds I dont want too. I just think for some reason she has a preference on what meds she prescribes, I think she knows i will need meds and I honestly beleive as far fetched as it seems that this is her way of getting me on her meds. What shes doing goes against everything I have been told in the last 3 years, I have seen 4 doctors in total and they all said I would have to be on meds all my life and without them i am putting myself through hell and at risk for no reason, im so confused right now

[ILADVOCATE]

  There still should be more available options. I agree it would be of concern if medication were discontinued entirely. It might be worthwhile to ask them if they have tried all medications they are familiar with and if so see if they can refer you to a mood disorders specialist who might be familiar with other medications that are fda approved but used off label as mood stabilizers.

[hell1971]

I have spent the day on the computer and my GP is right there is no mention of memory loss with this medication and the other side effects im having are blurry/double vision on and off, dizzy spells and dropping/fainting? dry mouth so unless that is the reason, im not sure. I dont think I can get a second opinion apart from my GP, I feel like im in limbo, on the one hand I would love to be med free and tell myself its not that bad my episodes arnt that bad, what if they are wrong and I dont have BP etc.. ect..and then reality hits and I remember how bad things have been since the day I took an ad when my life changed forever, do I want to risk going back to that. I wish I had a crystal ball, i dont know what to do.

[Tegorsk]

Is a second opinion possible? That sounds very very weird.  Oh, hi, hell, didn't realize it was you.