I take two medications for Bipolar Disorder - Gabapentin (300mg twice a day) & Klonopin 0.5 twice a day). Sometimes my speech is slower, especially if I'm in a depressive phase, which I seem to be in now. Although slower speech (not slurred) had been observed prior to medication, along with confusion & memory loss before my diagnosis.
I am getting out of a manic stage, where my speech was rapid. (No sleep, agitation, spending sprees, etc).
I now seem to be coming "down" from that manic state. No longer confused, sleeping better, memory improved but I'm leaning towards isolation, sadness & depression. Yesterday I was asked if I was drunk on a phone conversation. VERY sore subject to me as I got sober 5 years ago and it's something I can feel good about. (I suffer from extreme low self esteem).
Later in the day I got mad at my son (for a very valid reason) and he said, "You're on drugs". Yes, that's true - meds prescribed and I take them as prescribed. (He has BPI, and I found out he's not taking his mood stabilizer as directed).
I hate being doubted. It cuts me to the core. Drugs were never my issue, I self medicated with alcohol.
I guess my feelings are very hurt & I'm offended. I'm trying everything to get "better" and instead of support from my family I get accusations.
Anyone else have similar experiences, and how do you deal with them?
Thanks in advance!