P.S. In the photo I'm using as my display picture in this forum right now, my fiancee says she hates it because it looks like something is seriously wrong just by the look in my eyes. It was taken right before I got on medication.
Well... teachers always used to complain about how I looked like I was in another world as a child but that's probably because I have Autism. Now when I ask people how I look they say my eyes look tired or sad. Either that or they mistake me for being stoned when I have only used small amounts of the stuff two or three times in my whole life and that was a long time ago. I wish sleep made spiritual exhaustion go away, and pills don't seem to touch it. I guess some things can't be undone.
"Eyes so transparent that through them the soul is seen”
Theophile Gautier
When I talk to people I look at their eyes.
It's funny how the eyes "talk" to you.
I remember one teacher being so engaging by looking at her eyes....few months later they appeared like they were disengaged. Like putting up a barrier....when your not feeling well inside...you put up a wall so no one can see. Teacher burn out?
Being bp you know what that's all about!
You see it.
Hi, I wasn't referring to the pictures your father took of you. I was just saying what I personally feel and not referencing back to any other posts :-) Thanks for clearing up the "stealing souls" bit, I knew I wasn't imagining it, lol. It's funny how we have titbits of information in our heads (well I have) with no beginning and no end and no reference point.
I understand that some people can be distressing and in need of help. I just wouldn't call them crazy as it seems like we are putting ourselves down. Of course all of us here who have been in treatment for years find it difficult when there are others who might benefit from it and don't seek help of any kind. Its hard to approach people especially when we've been diagnosed ourselves regardless of recovery.
Hmmm...I' don't know what you're getting at. No, I actually think my eyes widen and I look startled in photos and it is not about a lack of judgement. I'm very sensitive to light so maybe it's the flash? The sociopath I know is a charasmatic one and he looks glib and happy but in his eyes I see this rapid vibration, if you will, like he's taking stock and playing a part. Like he can't relax and be himself - he's always looking for what his next cue is.
zzz, I have a sister who is far more unbalanced than I (you have to take my word for it lol). As a child she was the most gifted of any of us - heck, she was even amazing at MATH! But when she hit puberty her strange symptoms seemed to accelerate. I have always joked that in my family the more intellectual you are the more likely you are to be living on a school bus with 5 big dogs! Once again, her green eyes just glisten - not in an eveil way - just crazy.