Yep the energy is a major factor for me as well as my perception as this all changes with my mood. So my ability to comit is hard, i have been given tickets to travel to the uk from nz to see my family and i dont want to go for this very said reason, its horrible, i feel like i have been bullied into going but really i dont know how i will feel in two months or what struggles i will be having, sad really!
Om God I feel the same way I just posted the same thing. i feel like i hold my self hostage. I don't want to. But I can't help it. Between my moods and energy level. I'm stuck. I totally understand!
I have always said to my docs and therapist that inconsistancy is the hardest most frustrating thing i deal with. You are not alone, I avoid making plans because of this, I dont know how I will feel a week from now, I miss out because of this. I think the fact that our moods change reflects our inconsistancies.