Oh girl! I would really discuss this with my doctor, it doesn't sound like a good idea to me. I agree with eplo. They may not be the exact meds you need but they are probably helping some to keep you together. Sometimes just twicking the dosage or adding a med can make all the difference in the world.
I understand what you are saying about all the meds but it just takes time to reach the correct "cocktail" for you. There are so many good anitphycotics and mood stablizers out there that you haven't tried. Perhaps it would help to see another p-doc for additional opinion. I would listen to the experts.
I was told 25 yrs. ago that I would have to stay on meds the rest of my life to cope and I have proven that to myself over and over. This disease does not go away by itself..there is no cure and it can progress'. Please be very careful.
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Keep trying medications if you haven't tried them all already and educate yourself on your available options like ILADVOCATE suggested. I am sort of at the same point right now where I hallucinate, among other things, and end up confusing other people even though I am on medication but I'm not giving up, mind you I would more frequently if I wasn't on medication. Sometimes I want to quit as well but you can't give up. Try to remember "not fully working" that you said is key here, without them you might have an even harder time.
If you feel that you can go on without the meds, it is because they are working... we so easily forget how bad we were before the meds. I did that once, and I even stop going to the doctor and quite cold turkey my meds (back then i was diagnose depressive) I felt great, really really manic-way kinda great and i crashed. Good thing I have excellent friends to take me back to the doctor. The whole without meds lasted about 5 months, and after I had about a year before being back to ok. My doctor told me that this is the surest way to become resistant to the meds.
But if they are not fully working whats the point, how do I know I want be just the same without them.
I just feel I would be better off without meds, no constant reminder that I have BP maybe then I can just carry on like normal.
Its best to educate yourself about available options as regards treatment and discuss what might help you with your psychiatrist. I did reach several points in my life where it appeared nothing could help me but as I found out more and discussed it with my psychiatrist I was able to find out more and recieve better treatment.