frustrated with symptoms

[fw9239]

I live alone and this illnes keeps me from any quality of life.  if i feel good it is only for a few days  i suffer from apathy,  I hate my life.  i dont have anyone i can relate to in my life.  i have no hope of having an income or of having any enjoyment of my life.  this illnes keeps me isolated  and i have had emotional conversations with my friends and it is embarrassing.  i am going thru a divorce. is there any hope?

[LetaB]

What meds and doses are you currently taking? There are several members here who regularly write on this forum who have TONS of information on the subject and often have better ideas than a disinterested or underinformed proffessional might. Perhaps one could offer a suggestion that would assist you.

[tres1965]

I've had my meds upside down & sideaways it seems, but I keep ticking. My only goal somedays is to make it hour by hour, on those days I try to think that 'someone' would need me. That gives me a 'need' for life. Whether it is real or not. I was so alone in the hospital, so sick, staff infection, but I survived it by telling myself I was needed by someone? The Abilify keeps me sane, I've used the max. dose for yrs. The other meds I'm not sure even help, but I keep letting them play even though! I will not let me go off, for fear I'd never even have hope. My kids say I have no luck since the 'deal', but I don't think of it as far as survival. A hospital scares the beegeezee's out of me, I hate to be vunerable, that I think it is most of all. That & no hope. My goal it is to see tomorrow! Don't let fear rule your life Let hope do it! I can preach to the choir, but can't let myself even hum! It this doesn't make sense please don't get upset, I only want to tell you, you are not alone though it may be that 'luck' thing! Tres

[fw9239]

I want to thank u all for ur posts.  I am seeing a psychologist and psychiatrist.  I have been for years but i still go up and down every month  im going to ask my doctor if i should go on the pill  maybe this is hormonal.  i was depressed for 9 days  angry apathy deperssion  it slowly lifted.  I just wish i could feel  this good all the time  this is a  very scary illness to me.  I have my meds adjusted evrery now and then but to  no avail.  frustated   thanks for listening  

[tres1965]

I went thru a horrid divorce, with 2 yrs. of court battles in the process. I can only tell you that if you aren't at ease with your friends/relatives then get better ones Hun, you deserve to be happy, you really do. Life is not always misery, even though it may feel like it. Try to focus on one thing a week, that is what I'm trying to do. Be it church, reading, ANYTHING that is different from what I am used to. I MAKE myself go out everyday to 'chat' with the girls, get the mail, clean the house, etc. Somedays are easier than others, but atleast I try, or I'd just be useless....
I hope I didn't offend you? Tres

[hrt3105]

Shes right you need to get prof. help asap. I too have isolated myself after a bad divorce an numerous other incidents an I can tell you the loneliness is deadly by itself. It si hard to get out an start over but you have to try, I'm still trying so I know. The people here will help you all they can but it is still up to you to want to do this, AND YOU CAN NO DOUBT, Good luck if yiou need to talk i'll be here for you if not me I'm sure someone will
Mark

[LetaB]

  Most of your complaints mirror my own. You and I need to see a psychologist and get  prescriptions. I have an appointment on the 24th - how about you?