Why do I have to fall apart to get the help I need?

[BipolarBear75]

A few weeks ago, I stopped all my meds and convinced myself that my Bipolar Disorder could be maintained by taking in Omega-3 and going to work out at the gym. That did not last but five days before I ended up in the ER.

I just recently acquired a pdoc who does not give talk therapy or whatever....just pharmacology. So when the hospital had given me this emergency crisis center follow up appointment I decided to go.

Well, that was yesterday. I went and told them whatever it is I was going through at this moment and answered their questions. So the only thing they could provide me with in terms of talk therapy was a day program that I cannot participate in because I have a full time job but with no benefits or time off. This would be every day for four weeks!!! They also assured me that I was doing great and that I probably can be ok with just my meds.

Inside, I am not doing ok....outside, my son is in football and I attend all the practices and games, I have a full time job and I "look normal". Don't they realize it is SO hard to maintain this life and it is becoming overwhelming to keep up this lifestyle and that by the end of the week I am so exhausted from being a participant in society.

Why is it that I have to fall apart at the seams outside and inside to get the help I need? Any suggestions of what to do?

[CP70]

Its called our system of care!

Some things are proactive but with the more trying conditions it is totally reactive. So when you are in crisis you get the full service you need, till then its a wait and see game.

it needs to change.

[Venora Moonwind]

ben there I call them episode 1,2 and 3. It is the hardest thing for bi polar to stay on there meds.We get to feeling better and decide well maybe i dnt need those meds Or as in your case treat it the "natural" way
I dont know how things work in your neck of the woods but dont give up on trying to get into some sort of therapy Check and see if maybe there is a group therapy  something that will fit into your schedule.Just a thought.  but explain to the them what you have explained here and try not to give up hope. If nothing esle keep coming here and talk to us on the forum. That is lots of "therapy" for free Just remeber you are not alone.We can help you get through this difficult time and any others down the road.
Stay in touch
Love Venora

[imahypercondriat]

i have no dx but am in a very simalar situation to your self all over the place all i ever get told is that their is a waiting list and i am on it BUT du to me feeling totally ok at times i convince my self that i am perfectly ok and pull out of the system till next time i crash then it all starts again back on the waiting list ect ect wish i could suggest something but am looking for them my self scott