my sense of logic is the only thing keeping me sane

[n_ljohnston]

I'm going crazy, I must be. There was no schizophrenia forum, but I'm bipolar too. I'm not actually schizophrenic. But lately I've been seeing images in my head. Not so much like hallucinations, just ... images. I don't mean to think it, I want it to stop, actually. My life is finally in a good place right now, and I start seeing these visions of myself dead again. (This happened when I was 15, I tried to kill myself and ended up in the hospital, but they just stopped after a few months) . Also, when I was 4 and 5 I heard voices. I actually asked my preacher if they were angels. Anyways ...  I know these things aren't real. I was having a conversation the other day, looked down, and my fingernails were ripped completely backwards, all of them. But I knew it wasn't real. So I continued my conversation without saying a word. That's the first time I've had a real one though. The rest are 'imaginary'. ... so i guess my question would be ... any suggestions on keeping this from progressing?

[DLA]

Definitely get to your dr right away.  How horrible that must be for you to have to deal with.  Just keep remembering that they're just hallucinations and nothing more.   Good luck and come on here if you need any help, comfort, or just to gripe.  Am praying for you.

[Crystlas]

Ashley is right and I just want to add one thing.  This is not uncommon for bipolar I disorder.  Luckly, I have happy hallucinations myself and voices I hear are positive.  I only do this when I am highly manic.  I hear rock and roll music coming from the walls.  The doctors are not too worried unless it gets dangerous.  Yours is getting dangerous.  You do need to see your doctor.  Sounds like your meds are not controlling that manic symptom of yours. Take care.  

[AshleyBaker]

If you're on meds, they may not be working. Maybe you need a dosage change? Or meds changed altogether. I'm sorry you're going through this. How distratcing it must be. Can you make an appointment with your doctor? He/she needs to know what's happening to you. You're not suffering alone. Come here, please if you start to have visions of dying again....maybe think to yourself that it's not YOU willing this on yourself, your visions are unresolved feelings that are surfacing and manifesting within your psyche....And it's NOT your fault.

Ash