What is wrong with me?

[genuann]

Ever since I was a little kid, actually I was 9 the first time I remember this happening to me, I have had bad thoughts pop into my head for no reason.  Usually religious stuff, very bad.  I have to do weird things to make the thoughts go away, say prayers every day so no one dies, I jump the molding connecting my hall to my kitchen every time, I have panic attacks, get choked on food a lot, worry about dying daily, worry about my family members or me going to hell, and more.  I cant keep a job, the longest one I had was 2.5 years, I always think everyone hates me and talks about me behind my back.  I feel like I'm going insane.  I have scheduled appointments with Mental Health and I dont go, I dont know why.  Any help will be appreciated.

[Ted A Grossbart, Ph.D.]

This sounds like pretty typical OCD.  It is very treatable but you have to get yourself to actually go for help.  Check out the OCD Foundation for more information and other sites around the web.  They may be a good bridge between nothing and sitting down with someone. Don't just live with it!

tg

[genuann]

thank you very much i will do that