I don't really like to go to counciling because they try to tell you all the time that they understand and they really don't. Yeah talking about these things help but it's worse when you go someone telling you that they know what you're talking about when they don't know. Medication was a thought but I don't know if I'm for being on drugs. They only help you at first until your body gets used to them and then they have no effect any more. It just almost seems like I have this ability to know what's going to happen to someone. It's really scarry because I don't want to be able to know if someone gets hurt or dies. Is this maybe like a sixth sence that I have or something. Usually I try to keep myself busy at night right before I go to be so I can think about working or something to keep my mind blank from dreaming a nightmare. Sometimes I just wish that I can shut my thoughts out. There's been times in my dreams that I myself have hurt others as well. Or is someone makes me mad enough and I really grow to disslike them, I dream about them getting hurt or killed and actually enjoy it. I'm not a violent person at all and I usually put others before myself. So my dreams are opposite from who I am
I think that you are on track with the idea that sad and difficult events are frequent in your thoughts and dreams because you have had to try and deal with many sad and scary things. I don't think this is craziness, but there are some things that may help. Have you tried psychotherapy, medication, exercise, meditation, or other approaches? Let me know specifics of what you have tried and what has seemed to work even a little. We can then figure out you best next move.
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