Need help

[pure_white]

Just feeling really unstable. Had a drink. Am a lightweight. Now i'm paying for it.

[pure_white]

I'm actually trying to come off meds all together... after the other day i think i might just keep it at 75 for a long while yet. I had a reaaaaly bad day ... but i'm still here. Kind of predicted something would go stray in the first week, concidering all of my predisposing factors leading to it. I will look into what you've mentioned with a keen interest if only for my own medicinal eduction (right down my alley - studying phameceutics this term at uni)... sorry so short... must dash... cake in the oven - Mocha Lamington cake. Yumm.

[Hensley258]

I used to take Effexor XR at 350Mgs a day. It worked very well for several years then for whatever reason just slowly faded on me. Finnaly built resistance to it I guess.
Then I had to taper off Effexor to start new meds. Man was that the worst taper I ever had.
I got discontinuation sickness for 2 full months.

Did the Lexapro, Zoloft, Remeron, Nortriptilyne, plus added various mood stabilizers. Some worked but I always built tolerance again and would have to find a new combination of meds.

I'm not Bi-polar, but I have added 900Mgs a day of Lithium to this Protriptilyne (it's a tri-cyclic) and it's working prety well. Lithium can have an antidepressant effect at moderate to high dosages. Theraputic blood lithium levels range from 0.5 to 1.5 and this 900mg a day keeps my level around 0.8 which is just about right.

I think a lot of Uni-polor people really miss out the the theraputic effect that Lithium can have when combined with a good tri-cyclic. I also take Deplin which helps the antidepressant work better (it's just consentrated folic acid)

Only down side is the damn hand tremble I get from the Lithium, but I figure it beats wanting to put a gun to my head.

It's a good combo, maybe you should try it.

[pure_white]

Thnx for that.

I'm not bi-polar but i'm liken myself to cycolythmic some days, though i'm not diagnosed with it (and i'm no doctor). I'm a Major depressice and a few other things i'm going to keep to myself ... for now. Sometimes my condition doesn't smooth over too well with the general community.

I'm studying medical science at university and have been in the medical profession for over 5 yrs now. It doesn't help the temptation to self diagnose but in say that i'm well aware of the dangers in doing so. I'm on Effexor... started the decrease just last week from 150mg's once a day (a very light dose to start with i know) to 75mg's once a day. I've so far had all the symptoms predicted. Luckily last night my partner was here... all-be-it he was the cause of my distress.

Have had loads of therapy and been on a few different meds. Zoloft and lexapro to name a few.

I won't be having a few drinks again for a long long .... long time.

Tell me about yourself?

[Hensley258]

I'm sorry if I came off a harsh in my questioning. I just wanted to know a bit more about your condition so that I could give a half way decient relpy.

Sometimes we have people that only get in depressed states when they drink too much and they don't really suffer Major depression. I just wasn't sure if your situation was the other way around.

I can say for sure that when I drink that it does de-stabilize my cronic depression. I suppose I do it once in a while to numb the pain. Kind of an escape of sorts, but I always pay for it ten fold the next day.

Regarding bad days, thats pretty much everyday for me as my Depression is very severe and treatment resistant. I've been on more meds than a lab monkey and still am.

Are you Bi-polar?

[pure_white]

You might note that it wasn't in fact a question to start with. There was no question mark at the end of it. It was more food for your thoughts. And you are wrong in saying that it was a "blast" ... i wrote ...

"Sorry ... you may not have interpreted it that way but it's the way it felt! "

So, I was having a bad day, and might have missinturpreted you. I'm sure you've had bad days too.

I value anyone's input... strangers and all. But just sometime .. for the "lack of information" it's easy to missunderstand peoples intentions ... and just someitmes on a bad day (which i'm sure you can understand) you might take things in a different light.

I didn't come here with the intention of arguing with anyone. Especially were i come to get support.

[Hensley258]

Actually if you look at your origional post it was very brief and gave very little info.
BTW, we do have people on the forum that are not depression sufferers (that would answer your question of "would I be here if I didn't suffer depression."

Next time before firing off at member that is simply trying to accuire more info, you may want to try a softer approach. I will assume by your blast that you don't need my input.

[chickamin]

Whats going on gal, you try to over come one drug just to start another with drinking. How will that solve anything? Or is this a continuing problem?. Look you have your whole life ahead of you, your smart and alot to offer others, why lat anything screw it all up for you. Booze is not your friend and never will be. If going off your meds causes you this much stress isn't it better to go back to the meds? I don't understand what you are trying to prove and please understand that I do care about you so am worried how you handle all this. Wake up and realize, life is not a game!

[space_ghost]

go to sleep facing down on your pillow or the sides
dont look up .

[pure_white]

That's to say ... i'm feeling well and truely unstable now.... i didn't make sense before. Oops.

[pure_white]

WTF is that supposed to mean. "How does that relate to depressive disorder?" ... Would i be here is i didn't suffer from depression ... ask yourself the same question. How would you feel if you were having a bad day ... decided to have a drink and then someone asks you the same question.

I am unwell to begin with and i'm having a bad day .. i had one and a half drinks and a I'm not feeling well and truely unstable. Your question is like a kick in the guts. Sorry ... you may not have interpreted it that way but it's the way it felt!

I'm not a drinker...

[Hensley258]

You mean unstable because you had a couple drinks? How does that relate to depressive dissorder? Are you now feeling sick and depressed from drinking?