Thanks for your reply
You would think the crying would be easy. I do feel I have to be strong for everyone and I think it is a skil I have learnt to protect my children so that they don't me upset and to get things done . I'm on medication , I take 45mg mirtzapine at night before going to bed . I used to go to bed try to sleep , my mind would be racing , anxiuos feelings . I'm usualy up early for , say about 5 am but I would wake up about 3 am with sweat running down my legs , wide anxious feelings but yet my head gave me an empty sensations and like the sound of silence , like a hum realy , it's not a nice feeling realy ( horrible ) . The rest of the day I would feel anxious , depressed and tired .