feeling aint getting any better x

[hannah351]

so I was on here about a month ago, I just thought it might make me feel better to get off my chest how I truely feel, and yeah dont get me wrong I did feel better but yet its back again... I have this non stop feeling of anxiety, I feel like noone cares yet I have the best family support I could ask for, I have lost all self confidence when I used to be fun, outgoing now I feel quilty to smile and laugh everyones kinda realised months ago I've basically lost myself but I cant get this feeling tht I will never feel better again, i still havnt been to see a doctor and basically thats just out of embarrasment Im a young girl with great family I have no reasons whatsoever to feel like this?? like ive said in my previous post Ive now wlked out of two jobs and i have been left umployed for 6 months now, yeah of course thats gonny bring anyone down self esteem ect but even when I think back before that I still have this feeling, is depression there 24/7 because sometimes i feel fine and then give me a week or so and im back to this?? everyone around me is totally worried but I dont even know how to tell them how I feel and when they ask, i just crumble to tears. Also .. other issue possibly a main issue is alcohol, when i drink even one sip too much thats me I am an absolute totally different crazy person I have black outs I remember nothing and wake up to be told what happened, is this maybe all related but the drinking issues gone on for years now and i have finally realised that im jst one of those people who cant drink but its easier said than done in this day in age. i could go on for ever just typing how i feel whats going on in my head yet when it comes to telling someone i just feel like a complete idiot??? i know firstly see a doctor but im just scared to do tht at the moment but i cannot continue this way much longer

[brice1967]

Respectfully, what is the problem with medication?  Is it the stereotype that goes with taking medicine?  So often, mental illness can be attributed to a chemical imbalance.  Reintroducing the right chemical, proper therapy and a lot of work are often the right combination.

I'm not saying it can't be done without medicine.  But if it is directly attributed to a chemical imbalance, the only way to correct the problem is to reintroduce the proper chemicals.

I don't know your personal situation and I am certainly not a health care professional, but I am a person who was treated for depression and anxiety.  I too was reluctant to #1.  Seeing a doctor and telling him my problems. #2.  Seeing a therapist and having to tell my story numerous times. #3.  Medicine.....   I didn't want to do any of that, but yet I wanted to get better.  Wanting to get better is only a fraction of the situation.  You can want all day long, but if you are not doing the correct things, you are not addressing the problem.  If you are not addressing the problem, you are not going to feel better.

Off and on through my depression, I was able to put on a false front and seem functional.  This might last weeks... but the depression was always there.  Not until I went to the doctor, began with therapy and 1 little pill a day did things start to improve.  The rest was up to me.  Learn all I could, and do all I could to make myself feel better.  I couldn't "want" to be better any longer.  I had to "make" myself better.

Good luck to you.

[hannah351]

I know it can be fixed and everything can be fine again I just wonder if I can do it alone without the help of medication. Its how I feel at the moment like pushing everyone away and feeling like im losing my friends ect its horrible but I think Im over thinking all of this due to anxiety ect. I know I can be the person I was and person everyone liked, its jst gonny take a bit of time

[brice1967]

You're right.  You have to see a doctor.  That is the first step in getting help.  Telling the doctor what's going on, without lying is the second step.

You've got your sanity at stake here.  You've got the rest of your life at stake here.