Follow up to "What is wrong with me?"

[Faith0710]

I recently made a post about how over the past few years my life experiences have run me into the ground. So I guess heres an update. I am sick again, this is the 4th time I have become sick in 2 months. Last night my fiance hurt my feelings by saying there is nothing wrong with me I am over-reacting wanting there to be something wrong. My mother didnt want me to visit because she didn't want to catch whatever I have. I feel rejected and tired. I have been trying to get a job with the Lab my fiance works at, he has been pushing me to do so and telling me about open positions. I applied there a year ago and turned down a job because I had been promoted at the one I had. So recently I sent an email to the H.R director and she denied receiving it and was quite hateful on the phone. I spoke with a couple supervisors who asked me to come work. The hours were 3rd shift so I wasnt interested and my fiance didnt want me to take them. A 2nd shift job was offered to me last friday. Today I received a phone call from the very rude H.R director telling me that position didnt exist and I needed to go through the whole process again and choose another position, then told me I wasnt qualified for the only one I was interested in. I spoke w/my fiance who said that supervisor gave the position to someone else Fri. night after she offered it to me and took my resume. The H.R lady has it out for me, she has since I turned the other job down (w/valid reason) She went out of her way to deny me to a supervisor. I don't know what to do, I want to tell them all to go F*** themselves. They are begging people to come work and have an incompetent H.R director who only wants to hire immigrants who barely speak english and cant do the job, and no that isnt a stab towards spanish people. I wish they would stop offering me jobs and then sending me to her so she can dead-end me. Go find a job elsewhere right? No one is hiring qualified white americans because they want cheap labor. I cant get a job because im qualified and I cant get assistance because im not. All I can do is cry...

[Faith0710]

Sorry If I have confused, I guess you would have to read my previous post to get the whole picture. Im not in a job right now, Im unemployed. Getting turned down for jobs has only added to my stress, which I detailed a few days earlier. But Thanks for your support. I have another interview tomorrow, maybe all will go well.

[Haremiliana]

Dear Faith

I agree with what Venora said you're an intelligent person it's their lost for not hiring you don't make them tot that you're really desperate for the job I did went through what you're going thru couple of years ago their were very sinister to my race and belief, I walk out and promise myself that if even if they give me the job I wouldn't take it-it would be contradiction to what I believe (RESPECT!) Have FAITH my dear don't give up and as what a special friend just told me don't care what other say...Good luck.

[Faith0710]

I guess I dont really want to work anywhere to be honest. But who doesnt just want money to come to them? I have exhausted my efforts in looking for a job. This place is a monoploy of sorts. There are a few big companies here like Dell, UPS, Bank of America, Time Warner, LabCorp and Spectrum Labs...there are other companies but none I am qualafied to be at. Spectrum is the Lab I have been referring to; I guess im just pissed off because I have had interview after interview and have even been told im OVER qualafied. I only have a college/state certification in an area not even close to what im applying for. I applied to a restaraunt as a General Manager, went through this interview process to be told I was over qualified. I asked what the problem with that was and they told me when someone is over qualified they aren't likely to stick around. Well...Im applying aren't I? Apparently nothing has been offered to me. And yes I know I should tell Spectrum to shove it, but I guess I want to see some justice. Spectrum is owned by Moses Cone Health System which owns either 4 of 5 regional hospitals. I am friends with one of the Vice Presidents and I sooo badly want to call him and tell him what is being done with their Lab. I should but I don't want to put myself out there like that. I just want a job, the job I applied for, the one im qualified for. I dont want to see it go to someone else who didn't/isn't. I don't want to be turned down for a job because someone who doesn't know me at all thinks another person might need it more than me. I need it just as bad as anyone else, but this seems to be happening everywhere I apply. It has just happened about 6 times at Spectrum over the past few weeks. I feel as though because Im young, white, of decent health and I take care of my appearance I dont appear to be desperate for a job. I guess I sound like a whiny brat and I KNOW things could be worse, I thank God for all he gives me. I just feel there is disappointment around every corner. Thanks ladies for your support.

[redandpinktulips]

It sounds as if your work environment is very toxic for you.  In my experience, Management people don't always know how to manage people.  My recommendation is to leave that position as soon as you can.  Start sending out resumes everywhere, and job that you could possibly want.  Start thinking about how great your new job is going to be, how everything will fall into place for you.  Try to avoid the people that are pulling you down, concentrate on the positive.  Your title says What is wrong with me, there is nothing wrong with you that you feel pain when people are treating you badly, it is the person that is treating you badly that needs to look at why they treat people that way.  
Chin up, something wonderful will happen.

[Haremiliana]

Dear Faith,
I'm sorry if I used the word 'desperated', I'm truly am. But what I was trying to say, you don't deservered to be treated such a way, with your qualification you should be given a good post irregardless of your race, language or religion (that's part of our country pleadge btw), if I'm in your position I would have been very disheartened myself, but what can I say here is don't give up hope try others-HAVE FAITH. Keep posting...

Lots of love
Haremiliana

[venora]

So why would you want to work there?
You sound like an intetlligent person.You will find work I am sure at another place and one that is a healthier environment for you to work at.
It is hard to go thorugh tiems like this.I had my breaksown and I got fired so I thought I would never be able to work again when that happened.But here I am 7 years later holding a great job and 7 years is a record for this bi polar person.
What is your experience in?Have you thought about going back to schooland doing something you love ?Tell me more or just talk if you want.But what ever you do , do it for you,Not for your boyfriend or anybody,Do what makes you happy.So hang in there.We will help you get through this.Ok?
Love Venora