Depressed suicidal and anxious and alone

[SoBieNERD]

Does anybody feel this way. I am literally alone. I don't have physical contact with the world. I talk to nobody. I'm alone always in my flat unless I need to do errand or go doctors appointments... I want to die. I've wanted to die for so long. I have anorexia - actually I'm not sure but they tell me I am anorexic - low weight low bmi etc etc etc ... I don't know what to do. If I eat and drink I want to die if don't eat and drink I feel like I am gonna die - should I just tough that out and let myself die? At least I die feeling content that I controlled. I don't know. I need help but o can't trust nobody hence being incommunicado with the world.

[AnxiousNoMore]

Did you ever trust anyone? How long have you been the way you feel now? You don't work? What is your age? You mentioned you go to doctors, so is it about depression or something else?
I am asking these questions to try to get to know about your life.