I've suffered from anxiety for a couple of years now, but this particular time I also seem to be experiencing a mild depressive episode, for which my GP has prescribed me 5mg of Cipralex (escitalopram). I know a common symptom of depression is to lose interest in things you used to enjoy, but sometimes even thinking about doing things I used to love actually makes me feel sick and scared, and it's really troubling me. I feel really off-balance - I don't have negative thoughts about myself, I feel like I can go out and do certain things, but not others! I don't know if this is a side-effect of starting the Cipralex - I've taken 4 doses, and I seem to feel more anxious than I did before, and I couldn't sleep at all last night.
I've got through some pretty severe periods of anxiety before, but the things I used to do just don't work any more. I just can't think of anything that would make me feel better - except maybe knowing, absolutely for definite, that I'm not going to die, I'm going to feel better, and everything was going to go back to the way it used to be.
Sorry if this is more of an anxiety question, but I'm really worried about how scared I feel when I think about things I really used to love, because if I don't have them, I have a lot less to turn to when I need cheering up! I just don't understand, and was wondering if anyone else had experienced similar things, or had any advice?
Thank you so much!