Why are they not allowing me to die?

[BridaPaulo]

I took 12 parecetamol tabs yesterday.That was all in  the medicine cab.I tried to sleep. Hoped that I'd never wake up.But I got cramps and severe abdominal pain for 4.5 hours. I liked it. I felt unable to get up.They called me to have supper-I thought, this'd be my last. But, after it, I vomited a lot of plain fluid. They asked me. I told my sister.Hopefully, they were afraid to get me to a doctor. I still haven't had a stomach wash. Will I die eventually? Hope they'll forget. I'm feeling too tired too. They told me skip school today.I found some Amoxycillin. How many should I take for a peaceful death?

[nursegirl6572]

Seek help immediately.  Suicide is never an answer.

[swabes]

There really is no dignified way to commit suicide, or peaceful. Your loved ones will find you and it will be something they will carry for the rest of their lives. I'm not criticising. I have been where you have been. In the last year I've tried and failed twice, but I am so thankful I never succeeded.

Life is hard yes and although this may seem like an easy way out there is so much more. Let this be the opportunity to get yourself to hospital and see whoever it is you need to see to begin healing yourself. A big hurdle right now I know but I believe you're ready. I believe you are desperate for a way out, but i don't believe you're ready to die.
Once you're in hospital will be monitored and possible sent to see a community psychiatric nurse. Tell him or her EVERYTHING you feel is important, about how you feel and what has led you to this. Lay it all out on the table and its his or hers job to help, really help.

This could change your life. Please, keep fighting.

[rjwells00]

What are you doing this is not the thing to do I too have felt this way before but i didnt do it.  thank god i didnt some day are bad and some are good but you need to live for the good ones please dont your family loves u there is no taking it back once it done call 911 please call 911 they will get you help i promise

[Bubulous]

I have often thought about why my family or even God would not let me die.  Until 2011 I wanted it so bad.  I realized after coming on here that I have a purpose and it is to help people struggling with depression like I do.  Please come back and let us know ho you are doing.  I will leave you with this:

Thought cause emotions and emotions cause behaviors.  There are a lot of things that you can do to stop.  Often people say I am depressed.  Depression is the foundation for your thoughts and your thoughts feed the depression.  The short version is:
When you are depressed you have trouble distinguishing between the emotions you are feeling.  Lack of good concentration is a side effect of depression.  What I learned one of the last times I was depressed was that I wasn't just having one or two emotions, I was having several.  The emotions were all brought on in a minute.  The situation was I had a hard day with my ex Carolyn and as I hit the rock bottom of the depression I noticed and wrote down the different emotions I was feeling.  I felt fear because I knew that her dad didn't like me and she trusted him more than me.  I felt anger because that day she had compared me to her abusive ex husband.  I felt love because I loved and compassion because she had a hard day with a lot of suicidal thoughts.  I felt insecurity because she was so beautiful and I thought she would realize she could do better.
Anyway the point is picking out one of those emotions and let it be the one in the forefront.  They happen quick and I understand it takes a long time to get good at this but it was necessary for me to do it.  Also I wear two rubber bands on my wrist to help me stop negative thoughts.  When I pop them it releases endorpins and helps to ease the pain and often centers me.

A lady had been seeing a psychiatrist for a long time as she grieved the loss of her child due to Leukemia.  She made little progress over the years.  Although the doctor had great empathy, one day he told her that she had to fill the void left by her loss.  She left the office and came back two weeks later.  She sit down and told the doctor "I don't need you anymore".  In shock the doctor asked her what happened.  She said after I left your office last time I went home and spent all night baking cupcakes.  The next morning I took those cupcakes to the cancer ward at the hospital.  I found my purpose in life....making cupcakes.  You have to make cupcakes.

[thatquietgirl]

Call 911 immediately.  You need to get to a hospital.  Things CAN get better, but you have to make that first step.