If your mom won't take you seriously, print the things you've written and go to the ER, ,or an urgent care type center. I'm not sure what else to tell you, you say there are no other adults who could help you, so you'll just have to do it that way, go to the hospital. And when you do, tell them you asked for help several times, but we're not taken seriously.
This is what i get for bieng bullied and playing a computer game for 7 years
**** it im not gonna reply anymore im finished my mum is telling me off to see a doctor and says im making stories up. I hate everyone and myself for bieng a piece of ****.
Fine, this is my last hope im gonna show another doctor everything ive written on the internet. Where and how can i get a doctor straight away. If this doesnt work then gg im gone.
Then, you try again, you tell the doctor it ISN'T puberty. You have to keep trying.
Ive tried a doctor said its puberty, and how am i suppose to study when my brain is stuck and i cant remember a thing in my life.
Well, it's a shame that you won't even TRY. You can't go through life being unhappy about things, yet unwilling to try to fix them. Life isn't always easy, and if you have something like depression, it won't get any easier until you address it.
It would be fairly easy...at your next doctor's appointment, tell the doctor how you feel. That will hopefully open the door to some help.
As far as the money issue with your Dad, if you are VERY serious about this, I think you have the obligation to tell him to stop saving his money and putting it towards college. He will respect you a lot more if you are honest with him, instead of just letting him throw his money away for another 2 years.
There are SO many people out there who would LOVE to have the opportunities you do, for college, etc. If you got some help, and got to a better place emotionally, you would see that the possibilities for your future would be endless.
So, you're going to move away. Where will you go? What kind of job will you get? You will have to support yourself, so either you will have to live very modestly, or you will struggle if you try to live beyond your financial means. Even if you start OUT with money, it won't last forever. You have to be reasonable and think of everything that is involved. WHY would you purposely set out to make life harder for yourself, when you have the ability to educate yourself, have a successful career, and be financially stable? You're throwing away an enormous gift.
Hope you eventually decide to get some help. There are ways to do it. We make choices in life. You are choosing not to address this issue, and that's really sad.
Wishing you the best.
By searching internet i mean that it didnt help
Thanks for your answer, ive searched and asked on the internet, my mum does care but she doesnt believe and understand, so im gonna do it. Im just sad that my dad paid £7000 so far for my college and hes gonna lose his proudness to me. I just know a bunch of words isnt gonna help
I couldn't add to brice's post if I wanted to! The hairball example is FABULOUS!
I know how you feel and am so sorry that you are going through this. I am with nursegirl on this though. Running from your problems solves nothing and will create more problems. (I speak from experience.)
The more time I spent not addressing problems ended up being time spent creating new problems. It's cyclical. If you don't address what stands in the way, the pile just gets bigger, and trying to run around the outside of the problems ends up being a longer distance to happiness that facing the ugly truth, right up front.
Just guessing, but from looking at my situation and comparing it to yours, what you perceive as your parents "not caring" is probably closer to them "not knowing how to address what is going on with you". As scared and concerned with your issues as you are, they probably are too and have no clue what to do. That too is another set of scarey circumstances.
My poor mother, for years knew that I had some problems, but she thought they were all situational. The issues belonged to a specific set of circumstances, in her opinion. For me, all of my issues were intertwined. They were all related, because I would not or could not address the previous issue. So, they kept adding up.
Think of the dynamics of a hair ball. One hair is not a problem. Two hairs, not a problem either. 200,000 hairs, all in a knot and you are trying to extract just one hair from that hair ball? Big problem.... that is what depression is like. I giant hair ball, that keeps getting bigger and harder to dissect.
Please do what you can to address the problems. A great start is with your personal physician. Let him/her know how you're feeling and what you are facing. Let him/her have the whole story.... the help is there, we just have to reach out there for it. You can and will find that help, but running isn't the answer.
P.s. I cant talk to anyone believe it or not
I got noone and trust me ive lived in the worst parts of the middle east and i like it more than europe cause everyone here are smart and pick on people like me. Im 16 and planning to buy a ticket as soon as i have the chance
I misread the part about you having money...I thought you said you did not. It doesn't matter, all the money in the world can't buy happiness, especially if you're dealing with depression. You can change your surroundings, but until you change what's wrong on the INSIDE, you'll feel the same way (if not worse) anywhere you go.
Hello! For starters, how old are you?
Obviously, running away isn't going to solve anything, hon, even if you think it will. Think about it, if anything, it would make things worse...to be in a new environment, not knowing anyone, you don't have any money, how would you live?
Is there another trusted adult you could talk to? School counselor? Aunt or Uncle? Grandparent? Ultimately, you need to seek professional help. If you're under 18, you will need an adult to help you get that help. You don't have to feel like this, You are likely dealing with depression and/or anxiety.
Reach out to someone. Mauybe, print this out, and let your parents read it. Maybe they will uinderstand that you're really struggling. Please keep in touch, let us know how you're doing!