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[helppmee1234]

I scared. I'm so lonely. I want to die. but no matter how deep my cuts are they aren't deep enough. no matter how many pills i take they aren't enough. no matter how many times i walk across the street with my eeyes closed. im still here.


why does god hate me?  why did god take away the most important thing in my life and make me live through it. why why why?

[Hobby10]

Shippe13-  sorry if I offended u.  I will send u a personal message as well.

[RainLover71]

You don't need to go anywhere and you are entitled to your opinions.The reason many people struggle with depression is that on top of having to deal with the depression itself,we then have to deal with this thing called life and I can assure you there will be days when everything will go wrong or days when things will seem perfect and then all of a sudden it will turn in an instant and become ugly,anyone that takes life for granted will be in for a big surprise because life will always have it's moments of good and bad.I believe in god and I always will till the day I die.You're right,the real world is tough and can be so cruel and sad,but it can be wonderful to.There is no right or wrong answer here.All the best.

[Shippe13]

Sometimes when I need/want help from others, I don't want to hear the same " oh, gee, life is just wonderful, keep your chin up. Don't be sad!" Sometimes people need to see all perspectives and I was just trying to provide that. No worries, though. I will not be posting anymore. I am sorry that the world can't handle me or my thoughts... trust me, if I had the available resources I would be gone already so that I wouldn't feel the need to pollute any other minds. I will crawl back in my hole. Take care everyone. Hope you find happiness.

[Hobby10]

Shippe13 don't sugar Coat it or anything tell us how u really feel?!! Ugh.  If I'm ever on a cliff send somebody else!  He he.  Seriously,  to help--- hope u feel better.  Try to find joy in the little things like rain on a hot summer day,  smell fresh flowers,  chocolate .... Take a walk.  Take deep breaths and think about some good that has happened in your life.  If you are taking pills--- stop or get to a doctor to get it managed.  You are not alone.  There are people in the world who are caring.  Open yourself to the good.  Try to find peace with yourself.  Love you.  And talk to us if you need to anytime.

[lozzbra374]

Not trying to offend or anything, but I do believe in god and I always will.
I will never force someone to believe in god but I do feel that he is somone that I can go to no matter when.
But like you said, you just need to think positive for possitive things to happen. Life will come and go with many upsets and dissapointments aswell as good times too. It is just what you make of it :)

[Shippe13]

Let's face it, folks. There is no god. There is right here and right now. What happens tomorrow and what happened yesterday means nothing. Live for right now. Make it through this second and then the next and then one after that.... live second by second and you wont have to worry about the future (which, yes, to many seems so incredibly bleak). Life is just a series of crappy events in which happiness peeks it's head out every once in a blue moon. I have noticed that (for me at least) things don't always stay crappy. It feels like everything is just complete s**t all of the time, but I know in my heart of hearts that there have been some good times too... and that more will come eventually. Statistically speaking, it is nearly impossible to have a crappy day every single day for the rest of your life. Good stuff WILL happen, but you have to be in the mindset to let it happen. It is so easy to just fall into depression and find some kind of sick and twisted security in it, but one must make a choice between what it right (and good) and what is easy. Please don't give up completely. If you give up and there really is no after life and you don't meet up with people that you loved who have passed, that would be awful and a waste of a perfectly good life. I have a feeling that this probably isn't helping much... but I do hope it does (help). Keep on keeping on... listen to some awesome tunes, eat some awesome food, watch/listen to some awesome comedy.... and the best of luck to you.

[lozzbra374]

RainLover71 is 100% right.
Life sometimes makes things hard but you have to prove to them and more importantly yourself that you can get through it and that you are better then that.
Why dont you message me and tell me exactly what is wrong so we can work it out??
I just want to make sure you know that you really can talk to me about anything and I will never judge you.
:)

[RainLover71]

God doesn't hate you,he loves you.He loves all his children and wants everyone to be happy,but in order to find happiness sometimes we are tested,but have to be strong and we must never give up.The devil wants us to fall apart and give in but we can't allow this to happen.Good will always defeat evil.You can go on,believe in yourself.All the best and if you ever need to chat just message me or other people here at medhelp who are good,genuine people.

[helppmee1234]

Thank you, reading what you guys wrote really did make me feel better. But For me, my life is continuing to get worse. I don't know how i'm going to go on.

[lozzbra374]

I believe in god and I believe that when it is someones time to go they will go but if not its not their time.
I find it upseting that you cut yourself and take pills but then again I dont also know what is going on in your life. I just want you to know, life is worth it. You are worth it :)
Just think of the bigger things in life.
If you want to talk im always here

- Lauren

[mammo]

I'm so sorry that you feel so lost.  I hope you know that you have friends here who have endured what you have and truly understand and care.  Who did you lose?  Suicide is not the answer and it may take you to a far worse place.  I know you feel you don't care at this point, but you need to care about YOU and take care of YOU.  I've been where you are after losing my son and I also didn't understand why God took him away.  Life throws many curve balls at us and when you get out and talk to others it's amazing how most people have similar and even worse problems.  It makes you realize that you're not alone in your pain.  You need to seek help with this right away, please see your doctor.  Try journaling all your thoughts and emotions, this is a form of release for us and is very therapeutic.  If you need to talk or just vent you can always talk to us...openly or send us a private message, but talk to us.  You're still here because you have a life to live and with time things will get better....I can promise you this.  By getting help you can learn to cope with all of this which can be difficult on our own as it's just too much....too painful.  I pray this helps a little and that you talk to one of us.  Hugs....mammo