I have been put on so many different medications in the last 3 months for severe depression and none of them seem to be helping. I first started taking zoloft about 12 years ago and it worked great for me, I always seemed to be happy, well for the most part, nothing I couldnt overcome. Nowadays seems like im giving up hope, ive seen a psychiatrist, psychologis, family dr., read so much on the internet, read books, and nothing seems to be helping. Ive gotten as bad as to where i am scared literally to be alone, I shake so bad, I panic to the point to where i feel like i cant think at the moment. The whole world seems different, strange, and miserable. I dont see the point in life, I mean why do you do things you do, why do you sit there and just waste time, what are you waiting on? Yeah things pass the time and occupy you for the moment but what are you waiting for...what is the point? Cant seem to find a reason anymore, I have 2 kids that i do love more than anything in this world and they are the only reason i think that i havent done anything too stupid, that and the fact that i am scared to die, I mean i do wanna live more than anything but i dont understand why all of a sudden i cant seem to see the light i used to. I remember just enjoying watching a movie at home, or playing a game with my son, working overtime because i wanted so much and now seems like none of that interest me anymore. I havent been able to work for 3 months now due to all of this and its getting bad because my little one has to depend on me for financial reasons..as his father is worthless on drugs and hasnt ever done anything for him, the older one has a great dad so he is ok. Anyways my psychiatrist started me off by increasing zoloft, which was too much couldnt function on it, then he tried me on lexapro for about 3 weeks no improvement, cymbalta couple days and it was horrible, prestique a few days it was worse made me kick things and hit things absolutely hated it, wellbutrin for about two days ended up in ER body was shaking so bad uncontrollably , vomitting, paxil the rest of the time not working, the dr. also gave me xanax for anxiety cant function on it so i dont take it besides i heard it depresses you even more, ive been taking 5htp now had a few good days but still cant seem to see the point of life. Is there anybody out there who has ever felt this way and if so how did you overcome it, I feel like I have to start somewhere and i have no idea how to start. Please help!!!!