i need help :'(

[armira]

at first im sorry for my bad english.im 22 years girl,and from my 15 ages i suffer from a kind or depression ,anxiety,panic,or i don't know what.my dad is a invalid from the war of 1998 and i suffer so much for this fact,maybe this case has made me feel this way.i was in meds for long time,but nothing helped. im a student and i think im not gonna go at university anymore because of my agoraphobic,im scared of loosing my mind,im scared to go away from my home but im not feeling comfortable at my home too,im feeling weird with everything,like who am i?,when i look at my members family faces i say by myself''who are they?and they looks like stranger to me,that makes me feel terrible.i ask myself why we are living here,who did create this universe and how?oh God my stupid questions ...everything its a mess in my head :(  i want to suicide,kill my self and end all this hell im living,but im scared,scared to live,scared to die.. i'll end up my life together with feelings that are destroying me. plz help me,tell me what to do :'(

[valmirja]

maybe you all you need are some changes in your life. And just forgett
about all the pain and leave them behind you - Start Making Changes.
Don't lose your mind about facts that are many years ago, start making a step
forward or ask someone who's with you to help you making Great changes in your life. But breaking up with the UNI. isn't a good idea.

Kind regards.

[armira]

thank you so much that you answered me.I visited many psychologists, psychiatrists and i tried many medicaments,but it just make me felt tired, confused, sleepy,and nothing else :(  i just don't know how to deal with it,i hate my self and everything around me.the bad thing its that i have none to talk for this problem because no one understand me just say''its all in your head'' but i know its something wrong inside my brain...btw thank u for read my post .God bless you

[brice1967]

Seek professional help at once.  Suicide is not an answer to your problems and a good professional can help you sort the issues out and teach you how to deal with them.

I'm sorry that you feel this way.  There is help out there and this is the brave first step.  Seek the help of a professional.