On the outside, i am usually such a bubbly person and really happy. But sometimes, i get so down. i have bad thoughts, such as i contemplate suicide and have many times self harmed. I dont understand it , i get voices in my head and i hate them. I have cravings to cut the upper part of my left arm and i dont know why? I plunge my fingernails or sharp tools which i can find, into them and they leave very visibly scars. I really want to stop. I really want to stop feeling so unlike me. I've had this problem for maybe 3 years or so .. and now its getting ridiculous. Quite a few bad things have happened in my life, but this isnt the way i want to go about dealing with them. This is the first time ive ever sort for help. please help me. ????