I think this is depression, not sure

[levi909]

I am going to sum this up kind of, I feel so speedy all the time. I haven't said much about this to anyone, I buy things constantly and don't know why, write things and then don't remember it. I feel as though I'm not on this planet, I get these signals from space, think of beings around me like Angels and Demons, I feel like the FBI is after me. I sometimes feel numb like I can't breath another minute but my oxygen reads 98. I get nervous, thinking gravity isn't going to hold me down on earth, I just feel out of it, flashbacks, voices, see things like bugs or shadows. I feel like something is watching me all the time from space from a sattellite or something. The Government follows me sometimes. I get so depressed sometimes, sometimes excited, I don't know what's real sometimes, I have to ask someone, I haven't left the house very often, afraid to go out, have a fear of seizures, though I've never had one, fear of anxiety which I know I have. I have these distorted thoughts of horror and I just need help, can't think straight like can't organize things in my head. What is wrong with me? Do I need help? Am I going crazy?
Thank you.

[capegirlnoshoes]

Firstly, I want to emphasise that I'm not a psychiatrist, so whatever I say is amateur advice which you shouldn't take like it's a real diagnosis.  

I think it highly unlikely that it's straight depression, since you're evidently struggling with a lot of psychotic symptoms (delusions and hallucinations), dissociative symptoms (depersonalization and derealization) and anxiety issues on top of your mood problems.  You are also reporting some things characteristic of hypomania/mania which, if it IS hypomania/mania would definitively rule out depression.  
I think you definitely need to see a psychiatrist.  There are some good drugs out there which can clear up a lot of the scary strange things going on in your mind.  I'm on some of them.  
If you only get the hallucinations and strange ideas during a time when you're feeling either really depressed or really euphoric, then maybe it's Bipolar with Psychotic Features.  
But if those strange ideas and hallucinations and other strange symptoms that aren't mood problems happen by themselves, then maybe it's Schizophrenia, Schizophreniform Disorder, Schizoaffective Disorder, that kind of thing.  
BUT on a happier note, this might just pass and never come back and it could just be a Brief Psychotic Disorder.  

Either way, all these disorders I've mentioned are MUCH better with some medication.  You don't have to suffer like this.  There is help out there.  Go get it!  

[levi909]

Is this depression? I don't know. Thanks for your answer, I have an appointment the 28th of this month.

[mammo]

No, you're not crazy!  But you do need to see a psychiatrist for an evaluation so the two of you can determine the best route of treatment for you. I think there are a few things going on but there is so much help for you!  Make an appt. with a psych doc so you can sort all this out and get your life back to normal.  You're not alone in this, we all understand and care. Keep us posted on what you discover and stay with us for support and you go thru this.  I wish you all the best and take care!