I'm not really sure where to begin, but let me first start by saying...about 5 months ago, after being referred by my primary care physician, I went to see a psychiatrist. I explained to her that i felt an incredible amount of stress ( i had just gotten out of a mentally and emotionally draining relationship), a constant feeling of being overwhelmed...it got to the point where i truly thought i was going to go off the deep end, like i had no control. I had no idea how to feel better, and the worrying was exhausting. Nevertheless, she perscribed to me...Lexapro, Xanax, Klonopin, and Trazadone (a sleeping pill)...naturally, i felt better...but when I began to feel like i had control again...i stopped taking them all together...It made me feel bad that i couldn't handle things on my own. Everyone has problems. I did okay for a couple months, but now, Im starting to feel that way again. In addition, i have other feelings on top of those, which makes things worse. I have a great family, friends, and a wonderful boyfriend. The problem is, in addition to all these other feelings, i feel like i am not capable of being loved or find it hard to believe that i am . These people tell me they love me and their actions reflect that. Its like, deep down i know they love me, but yet i still doubt. I try not to say anything to them for fear of pushing people away, yet constantly thinking this way, and keeping it in, is driving me crazy. I don't understand it. Why do i think that way? I just want to feel "normal" again. Am i crazy? Paranoid? I really want to get a grip and take control. I don't want to drive away the people who mean the most to me. Please help.