Is this depression/anxiety??

[Blue727]

I am a 27 year old male. Over the last 5-6 years I have been through what I would call living hell.

I have a wide range of symptoms and I'm not sure what they mean or could be;

flat affect (never laugh, never smile), don't talk as much, nervous, feel like I can't find or mess up saying what I meant to say. Irratible, any type of stress is too much for me, my eyes feel like they are wide open and going to bulge out of my head. I get weak and very nervous.  My eyes feel heavy, but also wide open (very strange), lack of motivation, memory, dizzy, I go to the store looking for something and find myself grabbing for one thing, while the rest of my body is going the other way (almost like I'm confused, zoned out or lost).

I feel very slow, find myself zoning out quite a bit, can't sleep without a sleeping pill and I still wake up between like 2:00-3:00. I have the hardest time being in public, nervous, you could drop a needle and it would startle me, sweating excessively, headaches, when I try to take a nap during the day I shake and almost feel like I'm becoming paralyzed. I have always been a high energy, confident type of person, but I have no confidence. I am not stiff, but feel slow and stiff in my movements. Crying quite a bit, pessimistic, feel like everyone thinks I am talking, walking or just generally look weird. Hard to tolerate bright lights and when it's at it's worst during the day, everything startles me and seems loud. I get left ear pain with a sore throat on the left side.  My eyes feel like I have to squint.  The hardest thing for me is the fact that I feel like my head is in a vice.  If I turn either direction I almost feel nervous, paranoid and very slow.  Strange I know, but I'm not sure how else to explain it.

I have been tested for everything under the sun from thyroid to CT scans. The only thing I have so far is; I have sinusitus and was prescribed Avelox 400 mg per day and Ru-Tuss twice daily. My most recent blood work showed my Homocysteine, Nutr/Congen was at 45.8 with a UMOL/L range of 5.4-11.9.

I am scheduled to test my cortisol, testosterone and such through saliva as well as the test for serritonin, dopamine, etc...

Any suggestions, comments, help.....all would be greatly appreciated!!

[blue40]

I feel like an elephant is sitting on my chest and poking it's big toes into my breast bones.  I feel like at the same time someone is pushing their boney fingertips into my shoulder blades.  My head hurts. If anyone asks how I am my eyes well up . I feel like I am walking under water.  I have to force myself to try to act normal. I don't answer my phone.   I have 5 children, a busy husband who travels a lot. I am terrible at keeping my focus and have screwed up our checkbook to a tune of thousands of dollars so now we are in debt. My husband is rightfully frustrated with that. We just moved from a foreign country after years of govt service. My best friend just committed suicide last month.  She'd called me and I didn't answer the phone because I was not in the mood to hear her problems, two days later she's dead. She saved up her painkillers and took all the bottles .  Her husband said 300.  I can't imagine that.  Anyway, Next month we meet my husbands daughter who he has never met.  She and her mom ( who he almost married but they decided to part ways) are coming to stay in our town for 3 days to hang out with us.  She's in her 20's ( the daughter).  My husband started his own business and is under a huge amount of stress which is spilling over into our family.  I feel like I am being mentally "stoned" every day ( in the biblical sense).  I see a counselor every week or so, and I take 100 grams of Zoloft and YAZ to try and stabalize my hormones.  I cry all the time, in my room where my kids can't see.  I feel sick.  Any advice?  My husband is a good man, just stressed.  He is a perfectionist.  He works hard and asks for little from our kids.  What he does ask they don't do.  He vents at me, my kids vent at me, my parents vent at me, my sister in law and friends vent at me, and I just listen and don't get the chance to vent back. I have to pay someone to listen once a week. I try to talk to my parents or friends but   when I do they aren't good at listening.  I try to be funny and optimistic about my problems so I don't turn people off.  I am just tired now.  Any advice is appreciated.  I really would just like to curl up in bed and sleep but that isn't a realistic approach to these problems.

[jprusa]

Did you ever find out what this was?

[Venora Moonwind]

Get your thyroid tested too. A wonky thyrid will give you alot of the symptoms you are describing. Let me know how your tests come out.
Love Venora