Just don't know any more.

[Lucey12]

I get depressd on and off and really easily. My hair has slowly been falling out for the past year. I feel like Im worthless, like I dont matter and dont deserve anything. My husband tries to sheer me up saying im so great and how heart broken he would be without me. It doesn't help though. I feel like he is with me for the image of happy family. I cant shake the thought that he has cheated on me. Its been a huge problem all throughout our relationship. There are times where I kick myself for ever thinking such a thing, then there are times where I dont know if I trust him because he has been good at hiding other little things. I dont know how to shake this feeling but I need to and now because if he knows Im so doubting still it will ruin our marriage.

[Jbobs]

I once asked my doctor about upping my dose and he said "how are you feeling lately?" and I burst out into tears. He said "Okay!" I think I scared him pretty bad:)

[sunshine1976]

Write it down. Go in with an outline of how you feel.  How long you've been feeling that way.  If you cry you cry.  It will show the doctor how you are feeling.  It's his job to  help you deal with it.  Don't put on a happy face for the doctor, He's smart but not a mind reader.  You need to let him in so he can help.

[Lucey12]

One thing, how do I even go about talking to a doctor about being depressed?Once I start talking about it, or even typing it on here, I cry. I dont want to have a huge break down in the Dr. office.

[Lucey12]

Thank you Sunshine, you always make my day brighter. Very appropriate name in my opinion. :D

ILADVOCATE: Im not on any meds. I started taking folic acid last week though.

Mammo: There has never been proof. Hes always where he says he is and Ive snooped around his fb and stuff ans nothing. I guess I need to just trust.

[sunshine1976]

They tested me for thyroid because my hair was falling gout and I have issues with mood swings.  No thyroid trouble but with a dose of fish oil pills (no more hair loss) and a low dose Zoloft and a B100 suppliments I am the nice person I remember being, Not th b*tch I didn't recognise in the mirror.  Check with your doctor honey, You're not alone.

[mammo]

Stress and a slow thyroid can cause hair loss. It would be very beneficial for you to see an Endocrinologist about this.  If you're not on an anti-depressant, you need to get on one.  If you are, you need the dosage increased or a change in medication.  All the above are simple things to do.  What is hard, is determining if your husband has been unfaithful to you.  They say if a woman suspects this, chances are he is. You're right in that you need to know one way or another so that you can put this to rest.  It is wrecking you emotionally, and could end up wrecking your marriage if he hasn't cheated.  You need to do some checking up on him.  Check the phone numbers on his cell phone, follow-up and see if he is where he says he's going to be, just never let him know you are doing these things.  If you want to find out, you can.  But if you can't find any proof, then you need to let this go so you can live a happy life.  If you find proof, then the rest is up to you.

[ILADVOCATE]

As for how to cope with the relationship that's one issue and is your decision. If you believe he is cheating on you then it would be appropriate to end the relationship if you are sure its true. As for medication not working you could speak to your psychiatrist about that. There are many options regarding anti-depressents. As for hair loss that could be caused by some medications. Find out if that's a side effect of one of the medications you are taking. If its not working your psychiatrist could change it and if you need it and it does work taking folic acid as a supplement can help prevent hair loss. Ask your psychiatrist or doctor what's an appropriate dose.