there are so many people out there you can talk to but it is extreamly hard to find them. its hard to find a person who has been through what you have been through or going through. your welcome to email me first at ***@**** and well get into detail on a few and then maybe talk from there.
Or call this line 734 936 5900 for suicide hotline it helped me
There are depression helplines that you can ring, if you do an internet search for helplines in your area, or a crisis team.