Hello,
I've been a member of this site for awhile, but I was too scared to write. I'm out of options on treatment for severe depression. I have a psychiatrist and we tried multiple trials of medications and none helped or the medication was effective. I have a very caring doctor and she hasn't given up on me yet. I've been depressed for awhile and even with twice a week therapy, I can't handle the triggers. Triggers that don't stop. I'm really tired of this life and looking for ways to go. I failed twice (suicide) and ended in the psych ward. It was horrible. I would rather be dead than going to another hospital. It's extremely frustrating. I have multiple health problems (cancer, sleep disorder, depression, pain from a major reconstructive surgery. As much as I want to die, I have a doctor that cares and told me that it would be horrible if I finished my plan. I don't want to hurt her as she done everything for me to keep me alive. I asked to be released from her care (I didn't tell her that I was going to finish this), but she told me that I would need to find another psychiatrist before she can release me. The big problem is that no doctor wanted to take me. No one wants a suicidal patient. What do I do now? I don't want to keep doing this as my medical expenses are hurting my family financially. Anyone has a suggestion? I'm sorry if this question isn't proper for this site.