Suicidal/ptsd

[Angel3737]

I cant stop thinking bout suicide . I have chronic ptsd and got out of an abusive marriage last year and I was raped by someone I trusted recently. It brought me into a severe relapse of my PTSD which I thought I was overcoming. This time I did not keep quiet I did report but it is in a process now. Things keep on happening & I am so tired. I have everything to offer and always give my self with a good heart but seem to attract abusers since I was 7. I attempted suicide last year but failed and thats when my history came out and was diagnosed with chronic ptsd. Things were looking up for me my beauty career  out of a bad marriage and he admitted to things.], everything and now I am a mess. Thats all I do is google suicide. Im so tired and embarrassed to go back to my doctor . Its all my fault. I pray for everyone going through anything similar. Inside I know I am worth more we all r but in my case Im done . Im sorry to vent here. I dont know what exactly Im looking for

[lea_cattel]

I'm so sorry to hear about your trials I do hope those abusers get what they deserve. I admire your courage, you were able to endure those sufferings yet you are still here surviving. It's common to have suicidal and negative thoughts but I urge you to avoid these. You still have a lot of fight left in you. You still believe that you're worth more and that is true, so stay there and keep fighting. Don't be embarrass and hold your head up high. Continue with your treatments and someday you will be more than okay.

[Sara_MHModerator]

Please let us know if we can help in any way.  We've sent some resources in terms of numbers to call where you can find someone to speak with.  We hope you seek help from a therapist, psychiatrist or your health care provider.  Depression and PTSD are treatable.  We wish you the very best.