Often times I find myself either depressed or "having a good day". I'm not on meds, don't use drugs, or drink alcohol. I have a horrible temper, but usually suppress anything that I might do, because I may regret it, or I'll have to hear about it later, which makes me more angry. I normally end up hitting inanimate objects as opposed to a person or being, however I have hit people before. Recently I have been having thoughts of suicide, but I'm sure I wouldn't carry out a suicide plan. When I think about suicide, which is often nowadays, I get even more depressed. However, when I don't have those thoughts I'm normally a happy person, but with mood swings. Bipolar disorder runs in my family on my mother's side, and I'm most like my mother. I can go from a happy state, to a depressed or angry state in a matter of seconds. I have not been able to control my thoughts due to my temper. I have gotten fed up with my anger and my depressed thoughts. I hate my anger problem because I usually lash out at friends or family. I am already unmotivated as it is, so if there's a medication to relieve anger, I'd prefer one that doesn't make it worse. However, I don't think I could do less, unfortunately. I believe my lack of motivation is due to my depression and anger. The common ways of "cooling down" or "relieving anger" have not worked. For example: counting to ten, taking deep breathes, talking about it. I'm only 16 years old, which some of you may think I just want attention or wont take me seriously. I'm just asking for any suggestions or possible medication for depression and/or anger.
Thanks.